#apathy?

[oleredacted]

Watching Thunderbolts* and I’m not sure if there’s a word or better articulation for the combo of boredom and depression that Yelena’s going through [apologies I reduced it to just that] but I find I have such a strong reaction to it, as if I feel seen.

It’s like in Megamind [lol] when Metro Man lets Megamind win and they both become bored or aimless [or that’s what caused Metro Man to quit]. Something about that trope in a film has always stuck with me.

Recently, Charli XCX has created a substack in which she’s shared similar thoughts regarding the album [and cultural moment/tour] brat. I find her cultural commentary interesting. Something about her feeling this way evokes an emotion in me, but I can’t quite put my finger on it.

Anywho…

[buyospudlin]

Augh I'm playing as an oc rn and it's so hard to act sane and normal. It's so hard to act genuinely scared or guilty. It's so hard to act like I don't have the compulsive urge to rip into someone's flesh or break someone down mentally or even just be a little silly.

Rrrrrrg fuckin masking

[humblefun]

i’m...

[supersaladkideclipse]

[sizzlingflowersposts]

Most times I don't feel

I just don't feel happy. I'm going to a concert tonight but I don't feel happy or excited or anything. If I pass an exam I don't feel happy or satisfied. What's my problem?

[spqrmyths]

I think my anxiety like, peaked a week ago regarding all of these papers and now I'm floating through with the assumption I'll get it done

[anna-in-wonderland]

Why am I not a whole person? like i feel like I've been washed away? and why? cant? I? do? the? things? I? daydream? about? doing?

[velveteenpunk]

I can't figure out what emotion I'm feeling