I'm looking for the person who used to have the URL ensign-avaforrest!
The moral of this story is that I had a really good friend who I lost touch with who deleted their Star Trek OC and I'd like to find them.
Her name was Remi and her URL was ensign-avaforrest. It would be so helpful if you could reblog this, in and out of the fandom, so I can find maybe her personal blog or someone who has any idea what happened to her.
More info below.
So I'm a Star Trek roleplayer (my awful attempt at a roleplay blog resides here) and once upon a time I was new.
It was about three months ago, which isn't that long, but it's long in roleplaying years okay. notreallybutthat'snothepointofthisstory
My very first Tumblr roleplay ever was with a wonderful person named Remi (her blog used to be ensign-avaforrest). She was wonderful and our characters were great and she dealt with me even though I was still developing my character.
Our thread kind of died and we stopped talking and Tumblr kept eating our messages to each other so we lost touch. I also have very bad memory loss due to illness so I kind of forgot to check up on her.
Today I really missed her and wanted to go find her and... she's gone. Her URL doesn't exist anymore. I went into her tag and stalked her and her username is listed as ensign-avaforrest-deactivated20 meaning, I'm guessing, she deactivated. But checking her tag, I also realized that the last time she was online (or the last time someone was talking to her) was seven days ago.
That's it. Just a week.
I don't want to think she fell off the face of the Earth. And I'd like to find her. A lot. Because she was amazing and awesome and wonderful and I'm going to miss her if she's gone forever.
She might have posted something on her blog to the effect that she was leaving, so that's why I'm here. Did she post anything? Does she have a personal? Does anyone know anything about this?
Even if you've never heard of this person, I urge you to reblog. Help me, and a few of her other roleplaying buddies who will no doubt miss her, find her. Please. She's so fantastic and wonderful and Tumblr will be a sadder place without her.
Don’t put on a fake smile if you don’t want to. You don’t have to pretend to people that you’re okay, because that just makes you feel worse. If you ever need to talk, there are plenty of people—including myself—who would be happy to lend an ear :)
The thing is, i have to fake it. I can't let my parents know I'm starting to slide back into my old suicidal thoughts. I almost did kill myself once and I couldn't stand the look I got when I came too. I don't want them knowing that I want to die again. I want to tell them, cause my mom at least would listen but with my brother home. I just can't talk when he's around. It's probably all the stress making me feel this way, I'll probably be back to being actually okay once all the stress is gone.
Thank you though. It's always nice to know someone will listen even though I have the horrible issue of not asking for help.
"Hello." Niya greeted the stranger with a friendly smile. "The weather's really nice today, isn't it?" She asked, looking up at the sky for a brief moment before returning her gaze to the other woman. "Sorry, umm, my name's Niya. Are you lost or something? I don't get a lot of visitors."
Maggie was going through the morning's schedule, her usual PADD held tightly in one hand, the other organizing hyposprays. She heard the doors to sickbay open, and she turned on her heel, her eyes still on the PADD. It took her a moment to look up at the young girl, giving her a small smile.
