#envyfictive

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fma kins/fictives i know ur out there. are there any kincords that are active or do i need to do everything myself /silly

- envy (fictive) -

party note if anyone knows of one, please reply reblog, or like this post so anon can contact you!

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People who make nina jokes I'm going to brutally slaughter your loved ones shut the actual fuck up

- envy fictive + edward elric fictive (separate)

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FRIEND SYSTEM SPLIT BIG SIS LUST I AM GOING TO CRY /POS I HAVENT HAPPY STIMMED THIS MUCH IN MONTHS

I GOT MY BIG SISTER BAXK FUCK YOU ALL

- envy fictive

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Siblings come home the last time I even talked to one of you was Pride and that was months ago

- Envy (fma fictive)

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siblings come home

- Envy (Tag full metal Alchemist and fictive)

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Dear Edward and Alphonse, my ridiculous and foolish little brothers, your older sibling loves ya. You're still knuckleheads though.

Love ya dorks! -Envy, a Fictive

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[fictive-confessions]

i think its bad enough that ive gotten attached to a human. but its even worse that theyre an fp.

but the truly worst part is that he doesnt fucking understand mental health and what it means. im sitting here feeling like an embarrassment having such strong feelings over a human of all things, breaking down and constantly spiraling because of the shit they do to me, but when i try to fell them that, he tells me "he doesnt control my mental health and isnt going to change on a whim because of it."

as if he doesnt understand he literally does control my mental health. he's my fp. my emotions and mental state quite literally revolve around his actions and feelings.

i didnt fucking ask him to rewire his brain so i can feel good about myself. all i asked was that he would do the bare minimum in any friendship because he isnt even doing that and its making me spiral every fucking day. but no, humans never understand, because it turned into a blame fest of how its "my fault" and how "his friendships are none of my business" because i asked him to do the bare minimum of communicating.

humans sure are fucking funny like that arent they. im sure this will be twisted into my fault by everyone else too because of who i am. what i am. even though i tried my best to communicate without guilt tripping or blaming, to literally just get my feelings across and explain how his actions made me feel.

but even playing nice doesnt get me what i want or need. guess i dont fucking deserve it.

im not in control of who becomes an fp as a result of my bpd. im not fucking asking him to drop everything and manage my bpd for me. im asking him to do the bare minimum so him being an fp is more tolerable for both of us.

- envy 🌙

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[fictive-confessions]

envy fictive who rarely smiles and has difficulties finding icons because of it because every single piece of fanart they find of them smiling feels wrong on some level because it isnt "them"

- envy 🌙

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