So I've been having thoughts about inherited trauma and the relationship between ADHD and trauma. Like I read articles about how intertwined ADHD symptoms are with abuse, especially RSD, and I get widely defensive. Because have have RSD, and I wasn't abused. My mom spanked me on the hand a few times, but due to undiagnosed adhd reasons, that was preferable to a time out and caused, although I couldn't conceptualize it, less pain. Also I was beating the shit out of my brother for undiagnosed ADHD reasons, repeatedly. There wasn't much else my mom could do.
But my mom was abused. She also has aniexty. My dad has ADHD, but not RSD. My mom kinda has RSD. Just the idea that my grandmother's actions, decades before I was born is the reason why I feel like my organs are shutting down when someone shows disapproval...its kinda terrifying. That I under produce serotonin and suffered from palpitations most of my life.


















