The first thing that hits you is how much bigger than you he is. When you were younger, that felt obvious, looking at the portrait of him holding the rifle you'd inherited from him. The one that was as long as you were tall back then, and seeing it only breach the length between his shoulder and his palm. You had forgotten that, as much as you'd grown with the gun, he'd have grown without it.
So now, despite you bein maybe only half a tine shorter than he was then, you have to tilt your head all the way back to meet his eyes. Or. Eye. His eye, because only one of them can see you, you think.
He's handsome. You hadn't known that for certain before, all of his paintings had his face blacked out, like he'd purposely hidden from- everyone. Not just you, though it always felt like that. He's not hiding now, or maybe he can't.
But he is still good looking. A pair of dark grey slashes split across either side of his face, one slicing through his lip, the tooth it knocked out replaced in gold. The other scar blinded the eye it ripped over, and disappears into his hairline. Both are the only real break in the perfection of his face.
Though, and this catches your thoughts only dimly, he looks nothing like you. His nose is flatter despite sharing your hooked arch, closer to his face, his eyes aren't as wide as yours, his face is sharper, and he's so much sterner looking than you think you've ever been.
Until he isn't. His face softens when he singles you out in the line up, and suddenly there's a hand the size of your head resting comfortingly on your neck. You take in the full frame of him, how broad he is, in the chest, in the shoulders. How much the weight that comes with age in your kind has filled his middle out and padded some of those edges.
You, he says, and it sounds so much more ragged than you'd thought it would, do not call him "Sir", or "Captain", or "Lord".
The hand moves to mess your hair, and he laughs. The noise is like something choking, like the creaking wheeze of a ship's deck once the woods started rotting.
You call him like you would your lusus, he tells you. You're kin after all, feels less stilted than working out specifics.
So you call him Dad.













