#escafesim

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           When I first saw your face, you’re just a normal person. A person whom I never thought that would mean so much to me. It started with a tease, we would always fight and mock each other and I would always tell myself, “Who would ever fall for a person like that? well, even if there is, it’s not me”. Days pass by, I never thought these feelings of mine would go deeper. I never thought I would eat my own words and fall for that person slowly.  I knew it was just a splash of bliss I’m feeling and I’m not really sure about it. Or so I thought “it’s just a silly crush anyways.” And then I’ve admitted to myself that I have feelings for this person. Time flies so swiftly, years have passed, I have stopped loving and thinking about it. I thought I’m finally over it, but......I’m wrong. The feeling still lingers. You can really never stop loving a person, it is either you still love that person or you never did. If the feeling is still there, it simply means, it never left...

           For the person whom I love, you may haven’t felt my feelings because of my inability to show my true self to you, but may you always remember that “From the very beginning, I’ve always loved you.”

P.S 

I love you still and I always will.

--M.A

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Ten Things You Should Always Remember in Life. 1.Do not trust too much. Even those who are close to you. You couldn't risk trusting them because you don't know how people minds work. One second they're good then boom, the next thing you know you're being backstab already. 2.Do not take revenge. Its okay to be hurt, its part of growing up but I tell you, do not strike back. I know its not easy but try to forget them and get on with your life. Soon they will realize their mistakes and when that time comes, let that karma strikes. 3.Don't give too much, don't give too less. Stay fair. You should know your limitations and you should keep in mind that you have to satisfy and love yourself first before giving love and satisfaction to others. Don't settle for something too much or something too less. 4.Accept the things you think you deserve. Don't take advantage on things because you don't know what's gonna happen next when life starts its paybacks. Don't get used to the things you know that is not gonna be yours forever. 5.Breath In, Breath Out. Don't stress yourself too much. Don't take problems way too seriously. You could go insane if you do. Just breath and think. Always look at the positive and brighter side. Never give up and always believe in Him. 6.Learn to love yourself first before you give love to others. Always remember this one. You cannot love other people not unless you know how to love yourself more than anything else. Bear in mind that we always have our own self when we don't have anyone else beside us. 7.Keep smiling and stay strong. Just let the shit happen and just smile at them. Show them that you're strong and you're happy no matter what life trials punches you in the face. Show them reasons why you're not going down. 8.Live your life as if there's no tomorrow. Don't hesitate to do things you want to do. Don't stop yourself from anything that makes you happy. If you want to enjoy your life then go out there and have fun. 9. Be ready for consequences. Once you do something, there's always the counterpart and you should be ready for that whether good or bad. Be strong enough to stand and pay for whatever consequences on the things you did from the past, present and even for future. 10.Have faith and trust God. Never lose hope. Always believe that He will help you through everything you've been through. Trust Him with all your heart and don't have hesitations on the things He can do. Surrender your life onto Him.

ten things to remember (xx)

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Lahat gagawin ng isang ina para sa kanyang anak. Kahit mahirap, tinitiis at kinakaya.

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And now we’re apart and you’re just some stranger who knows all my secrets and all my family members and all my quirks and flaws and it doesn't make sense.

Gaby Dunn

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Girls pretend to be alright in front of many people because they don't want others to see they're vulnerable. Girls are the most pretentious creature living here in Earth and I guess its just one of their defense mechanism to cover up the pain they're feeling every time they feel throbbing heartaches. Its their camouflage to hide their true emotions. They don't want other people to see them in their worse state. Yes, girls are somehow having the highest pride but the thing is they're not as strong as others thought they were. Girls are hypocrite. They try to hide what they truly feel. They pretend to be tough while deep inside they want to blow up. They're just holding up their tears and when they got home and alone once again in the dark corners of their room, they will let it out. They will release the tears they're holding back as if the whole world is against them. But you cant blame a pretentious girl for being like that. We all have reasons for doing things which we don't really want to do. We all have reasons why we act differently when others are around and when were all alone by ourselves. I'm pretty sure we all have reason to act like that. We all have reasons.

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One day you'll be asking yourself why did you let her go. One day you're going to cry in the corner of your dark room punching the wall and realize how dumb you are. One day you're going to wake up with no one to hold and no one to give you a sweet morning smile. One day you'll be whispering by yourself and you're gonna curse when you see her with someone else laughing so damn hard. One day you're gonna feel that ache at the left side of your chest and you're going to bump with her and you cant even say a single word because you'll have that lump in your throat and when she walks away, your tears are gonna fall at the moment.

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The thing is i'm starting to miss you.

I know I shouldn't be missing you but I cant help it. I just cant deny the fact that I felt a strange feeling of longing for your voice. I want to hear you say something. I don't care if its nonsense cause I really want to see that lips of yours move. I'm starting to miss your scent. Your smell still lingers on my clothing and I am addicted to that kind of masculine scent. I miss your touch. I miss those fingers of yours which slowly runs through my skin. I miss the way you pull each strand of my hair every time they covers my face. I miss how you suddenly awaken those butterflies in my stomach every time your lips touches mine. I miss the chills you used to give me when you releases your sweetest forehead kisses. I hate the fact that i'm missing you but I still miss you. I cant stop myself from missing you. How do I stop myself from missing you? Oh, damn. This girl really misses you.

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“Everything that happens to you matters to me.” 

I never realize how much you could mean to me but everything happens to you matters to me. Its like you're my extension. An extension of happiness, sadness, hatred and love. Everything you feel and everything you do affects me. I just don't know where will I be if I don't have you. You're my drug. A kind of drug I couldn't resist. Its like i'm so addicted to you and without you I cant cope up. All I want every moment of my life is to be close to you. I just cant see myself smiling if you're missing. I thought that what I feel for you right now is a feeling that will remain eternally. Its constant and change has no room inside my heart. And I want you to feel the same way too. Just let me love you and I will do the same way for you. I won't look for someone better because you is enough. Its enough to keep me going. Your love is enough keep me from holding on and fight for what we have right now. Lets build a foundation no one could ever break. Lets keep the love growing.