#essels

[honoredbastard]

02.            remember?

       char. s. gojou & m. whisper. feel free to believe it as a f!reader.         cw. blood techniques, suggestive themes, & manga spoilers.                            [ more gross writing <3 ]   

tags: @fuckeisuke @candycanssweetlife @forever-war​ @onepotatostand-blog​​

is it selfish to delude yourself of the fact a god likes you. whether you’re a mere mortal, a devil, a grain of salt. is it selfish? that you both have your skin clashing together, an intimate act between to that level each other on the same playing field for however they can last.

kisses that range from your stomach to your jaw. the god touching each and every part of you liked you were something straight out of a fantasy. is it wrong to indulge yourself in such an act?

you weren’t aware of the logics behind it. you were just trying to ride it out, ignore the idea of god and devil. you were finding a reason to accept the idea of him reaching and exposing your deepest parts of yourself without care.

but you couldn’t. you stopped, grabbing your stuff and got dressed. leaving a confused deity, the chosen one, in a love motel bed with it’s sinful arousal. you were seething with self-loath that you were drunk enough to believe it was okay to sleep with him.

“did he leave?” whisper asked curiously, wiping the previous ‘tears’ she used to pull off gojou’s advances. opening the door just enough, she saw the pile of books, they were stacked and there was no sight or presence of the problem. she made her previous blood scythe duller and scooted the books over with haste. “c’mere...”

she was a bit short so when they reached the door she stepped up to grab the books until she was interrupted by the man she was seeking to not find. “hi~” “god.” she scoffed, clenching her books and throwing the door close. aside, there was no slam. “fairy-san.” “asshole-san!~” she mocked, her lips tried to hide her frustration. biting into her cheeks. 

“you wouldn’t close the door on a friend would you?” “can you not act familiar with me? we’re just jujutsu sorcerers. woopity do. i-” she cut herself off, glaring at the man before slamming the books on her bed. “i was just friends with suguru.” she managed before sliding off the coat she was wearing.

rushing past gojou who was keeping the entrance open with his foot. “hm.” gojou ‘watched’ as her cursed energy got further and further away. “is she going to talk to yaga?” he asked himself with a curious tone before he got an itch to be nosey. “i wonder what books she was reading.” sliding his blindfold off, he walked into her dorm without further question.

sliding them out so all titles could be seen. blood technique skills, blades, enchantia, the list went on. what did she need all of these for? some of these books were banned. how did she get them? he stared with squinted eyes, cursed energy residue remained on some. “what are you up to?” she was a grade one sorcerer that had little troubles fighting special grades. what was she trying to reach?

“HAHA. Yaga you must be joking! I shouldn’t be teaching students, I can barely teach myself! You already have a special grade sorcerer, the strongest, the chosen one; Satoru Gojou on this! They’ll be fine!” Her voice rang throughout the dim lit area. 

The man whom she was yelling at was patiently knitting a cursed doll, using the thread to infuse his technique. “Makil.” “Don’t.” Yaga drew a breath through his nose, “Whisper. I know you’re still upset with Suguru’s death. But you have to-” “Upset? Bullshit. I’m not upset, I’m perfectly fine!”

Yaga let go of his doll that was not moving, his hands balled into fist until the slammed down onto the wood where he sat. His voice loud and clear, startling even Whisper. “YOU ARE NOT FINE, WE KNOW THIS MAKIL! YOU FLINCH EACH TIME SUGURU IS BROUGHT UP AND YOU EVEN BROUGHT BANNED BOOKS ABOUT REHIN INTO MY SCHOOL. YOU WERE ONCE MY STUDENT AND SO WAS HE.” 

He slowly got up, his footsteps hard and heavy. “Makil, it’s in the past. You can no longer see Suguru. You can no longer see the man you once loved and you cannot try to shove it down by blaming Satoru. As much as he is hated he’s loved 10x harder. He, right now too is upset. Struggling even. What I need you to do is help these students grow. They’re loveable and remind me of you four when you all were my students.”  

His eyes bore into Makil’s, she shivered at it. She was’t blaming Satoru, right? No, he was something she couldn’t reach - there was no point in blaming him. She was never blaming him, she was just confused. She had no right to be friendly with something she found annoying.

“Please, Makil. I am begging you.” Yaga grabbed both of her arms, tears streaming down her face. “Ah? Haha, what? This can’t be real, right?” “It’s real, in everything. But right now I need you and Rehin to do the best you can and help these students. Especially Yuji Itadori. I’m sure Gojou will take you to see the other two. But do not mention that the vessel is alive. Got it?”

“Got it.” “Good, he’ll have his grand entrance at the kyoto battle.” “Ha? THAT’S LIKE FOUR DAYS AWAY?” Yaga wiped away Makil’s tears that stained her cheeks. “I know, I’ll give you information on each student. Just bare with me.”

quite curious who this rehin can beeeeeeeee this writing is booooooooooobooooooooooooooo

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[image: a swtor screencap showing Vokk, a human Sith lord, standing on a docking bay in a half circle of imperial soldiers. in front of him is Tai, a red sith smuggler. Vokk says “Kilran promised me a challenge, and this is what I get?” next, Tai says “I’m not afraid of anybody.” end image]

tai’s interaction with Vokk, who is probably the first Sith Tai has encountered since he got KO’d and left for dead on Korriban.

It should be noted, the dialogue option Tai clicked on was “You think you scare me?” but it was changed when he said it (cuz... SWTOR). however “You think you scare me” would have been much better because it would have been “You think you scare me?... Cuz you are right you absolutely do.”

And obviously he’d fight him anyway, cuz last post (link) but still

[anpansblog]

Um... Are you ok, ambassador ?

This bug almost looks like a blooper xD

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[image: screencaps from SWTOR in the engineering compartment of the Essels. Crewman Vepp is says “What about a reactor reset? That would disengage the security locks, wouldn’t it, sir?” Chief engineer Salen says “Yeah, but a reactor reset vents the engineering compartment -- we’d be blown into space. Besides, controls are on the other side of the door.” Outside of the engineering compartment, on the other side of the yellow shield separating them, Ambassador Asara says “I’m sorry, Salen. We need to unlock the bridge while we have the chance. We have to reset the reactor. You and your men will be remembered.” Tai, a sith smuggler, turns around and faces the Ambassador and says “We can’t send these people to their deaths! Not when there’s an alternative!” behind this dialogue is the symbol for “lightside points gained” and the text “Corso Riggs approves.” end image]

couple thoughts on this

a) you knwo all the other engineers are like “OMIGOD vepp shut up” when vepp tells people about the reactor reset that might get them all killed :P Granted he didn’t tell them *how* to do it, that was on Salen.

b) I mentioned in the last post that Tai was combat adverse. This is one of the situations that shows the difference between Tai once he’s left the empire and empire Tai. Empire Tai would have been perfectly content letting the engineers die for the mission, because he would be afraid of trying it the other way. He was dominated by fear. Despite his lack of force and combat talents, he survived a while in the Sith Academy by tricking other acolytes to their deaths and avoiding straight out fights at all costs. He did things he wouldn’t have done otherwise because he was scared of what would happen to him if he didn’t.

Once he is rescued from Korriban (after his tricking people plans didn’t work and he got left for dead) and he’s with his team of smugglers, he sort of realized how unhealthy the environment he was in was and how much blood was on his hands. Now, even though Tai still prefers to avoid combat if possible, what he hates more than anything is the idea of going back to how he was, and prioritizing himself and his own personal safety over the things he knows are right. So even though he’s afraid a lot, he still does things that scare him because he knows he wouldn’t be able to live with himself if he started getting innocent people killed again.

I guess Pubs side Tai really fits the whole “Courage isn’t the absence of fear, it’s overcoming it” or however the quote goes thing.

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[image: dialogue between Ambassador Asara (a blue skined twilek) and Saeyt Doraz (a red skinned twilek). Ambassador Asara says “I should warn you, though. Grand Moff Kilran is never going to forget what we've done. He'll stop at nothing to get his revenge.” Saeyt Doraz says “If Kilran wants to try me again, that’s fine.” end image]

Tank after this would be like “does that mean he’s my nemesis now? are we nemeses?”

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[image: a screencap from SWTOR showing Tai, a red sith wearing a metal chestplate, staying “There’s no reason we can’t cut a deal, here.” He’s speaking to Grand Moff Kilran on the holo. A hologram of Grand Moff Kilran says “Come, now. I think it’s obvious I’m not here for friendly diplomacy.” end iamge]

Tai is the most combat adverse of all of my OCs. Some of them view it as a method of last resort (like post chapter 1 Harin So) but Tai is the only one who is always somewhat afraid of it (until maybe Kotfeet... I should write about Kotfeet Tai)

Anyway, he wouldn’t be willing to turn over Ambassador Asara to Kilran to avoid fighting, but he would be willing to try stalling talking and seeing if they cant do a sneaky plan that doesnt involve just fighting everyone. Which I think is what they do in my canon anyway (Tai pretends to be a Sith Lord :P)

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[image: a screencap from SWTOR showing a large hangar bay in dark lighting. Five imperial soldiers and one Sith are on one side of the room and a single republic trooper with a giant cannon is on the other. The Sith, Vokk, is looking down and saying “A soldier? What a waste. No soldier can match the power of a Sith.” next, we zoom up on the Sith’s face as he looks up. He has yellow eyes, a round face, and very pale skin. He says “The pleasure will be all mine!” end image]

just for my own future reference: I’m pretty sure this is the first time Tank encounter’s a Sith.

In canon, she’s with Tai, since they did the flashpoint together. But she was less scared than he was. Tai’s met Sith before, but that’s why he’s scared of them, he’s seen them being awful and been on the receiving end of the awfulness

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[image: two screencaps from SWTOR, showing the same red twilek with tattoos on her face (Tank). in the first screencap, she says “The bridge is open, and no innocent lives had to be sacrificed to do it.” the next shows her saying “I didn’t sacrifice the engineers to get us out of this, I won’t sacrifice Asara, either.” end image]

synopsis of Tank on the Essels flashpoint.

She just doesn’t understand why everyone keeps asking her to let people die