Dec 15, 2021
thought about my relationship with my mother for too long and now I have a tummy ache :/
#things are fine basically in large part because she HAS put in the work#but sometimes I think back and Im like wow yikes#Essentially like#I know I shlould be glad and grateful that my mom was willing to do a lot of sellfreflectiion and honest to god changed#and improved#with regards to me being trans#like I am#I am grateful for the work she did#but other times I think about the fact that she had to like. Talk to a therapist about me being trans#and I get#I get weirdly bitter#because that was the right thing to do#it's what she should have done and it meant she didn't#you know#completely torpedo our relationship#but sometimes I just#man she occasionally a little bit made me feel like me being a man was a hotror I was inflicting on her#(and myself)#and I imagine that's something she worked out in therapy#but the fact she had to work it out in therapy kinda contributes to the feeling you know#it's a real catch twenty two