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"why do your bring up your system in every conversation" wow... It's almost like... my life and body being constantly shared with other beings... affects every area of my life and is, as such, extremely likely to come up in conversation. Who would've thought that something that influences a lot of my behavior and identity would be mentioned in my conversations with others, most of which center around behavior and identity? Truly, it's a wonder... A mystery, even...
The irony of people reblogging our posts and adding "endos dni" like buddy I am the endo. The endo has already interacted. The endo has been here from the start, and is wondering how the hell you got here
Years of writing fanfic with multiple characters talking together has instilled in us the "locate whoever hasn't spoken in a while" instinct, which works well for fanfic, but not so well when you're just having a conversation in co-con and not everyone has something to say. Sorry for putting you guys on the spot, I swear it's just the desire to make sure no one gets left out
I want to be allowed to be cringe. I want to say things that might not be hurtful but definitely make me go "What was I thinking?" when I look back on them. I want to acknowledge that I have a lot to learn in this world, and I will be clumsy while learning it, but I don't have to apologize for my clumsiness. I want to make mistakes and learn lessons the hard way. I want to find the silver lining after I've fucked up, and I want to have days where there is no silver lining. I will never live in a utopia; I can never live in a utopia, and I want that to be okay. There will be bad days and fumbles and I will scrape my knees and hands and have to dust off my pants. That's okay. I want to be okay with that. One day I will be okay with that.
"introject" is too clinical for me, but the alternative of "introtive" is like. Idk. Feels too close to "introject". Like someone tried to make it more inclusive but it still has extremely clinical roots. And then I've heard "sourced headmates", but that's a mouthful, and trying to shorten it to "sourcedmates" just makes it too close to "sourcemates", something that I'm sure would confuse people. Which just kinda loops around and leaves me with -tive. Headtives. Tivemates. Whatever. This post isn't meant to make a Point™, it's just like. Damn. I think (stating this as an opinion, not a commentary) this community needs better options, especially considering this is also a problem for headmates who aren't some flavor of -tive or -troject.
Exomemories make a lot of things weird, I've found, mostly due to contrast between this life and whatever those exomemories are about. I was a fucking war medic and yet here I am as the designated "water-type Pokemon guy" of my system. What the hell.
We have over 1k followers now. That is entirely too many. And yet, I am flattered. Thanks, y'all. Please take care of yourselves
I wanted to make a post about my positive experiences being in a system. Partly just to cement them on our blog, and partly because I want to show how it does get better
I came into existence – no joke – screaming my head off with terror at being in a new body with other people in my head. I was terrified, and my exomemories of dying in a brutal way didn't help me calm down at all. It took me a while to catch my breath and hear out the others, after which I tentatively poked around the front and innerworld with the kind of caution one would give a minefield they've been told they have to live in.
Over time, I got used to it, but it only hit me yesterday just how far I've come. One of my headmates called me into front to show me something he thought I'd like. I can feel my headmates surrounding me and helping me. I can make jokes about myself with my system without fearing any unkind words. It's nice, now. A lot better than it was when I first formed.
Not everyone's going to have as dramatic an entrance into being a system (whether you're gaining awareness of your system or gaining awareness of your own existence) as I did, but I think a lot of people have had moments of doubt and fear about what being a system may mean for their life. And that's okay; I totally get that. Just remember, given time, there are also going to be quiet moments where you can just relax and have fun with your headmates. It's not all fear and distrust and screaming your head off. Sometimes it's just nice.
