sometimes (like rn) when I get too obsessed with a new type of media , when I'm reading a fic , a new book or watching a new series/film and my hyper fixations becomes too much I feel it deeply in my bones that I'm going insane. Maybe I should go outside, talk to people, reconnect with nature, put down phone once in a while but why should I? What's in it for me? Because nothing brings me as much joy as having a new hyper fixation. I just want to lock myself up in my room and not talk to anyone until my hyper fixation has faded and I'm in the transition of finding a new one.
I think I was born to go feral over anything ( and anyone) I watch or read about.
And yes I'm reading heated rivalry rn. And I'm in love with Ilya, that's actually my baby and he needs to be protected at all costs.
