#everything feels temporary

[mumus-candied-bonezzz]

My happiness always feels temporary.

[bumbelbee]

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[misplacedscotty]

Laughter

I miss it.

The way it resembled the universe,

Beautiful, surprising, and infinite.

I miss it.

When everything was funny and funny was everything.

There was a giggle in every atom in space and time.

I miss it.

The way it used to be pure and whole. 

As though there was nothing else in that moment. Nothing beyond the humour. 

But there must have been something beyond the humour because time passed and the jokes partially outgrew hilarity like a adult partially outgrows childhood. 

I miss it.

Because now, after everything, when I laugh I am stolen from the hilarity.

I am reminded to be glad to be laughing again.

I miss it.

Because now laughing doesn’t make me happy.

it makes me feel lucky

I miss it.

Because when I laugh now it is not the same.

It feels temporary. 

[mumus-candied-bonezzz]

Me after believing the happiness could last （’-’*)