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That was the moment, I lost my soul.

-Clarke Griffin

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its my mom's birthday and all i can think about is how dangerously suicidal i am

#im sorry mom #I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore #everything seems pointless #and i HATE this overwhelming need to talk and talk and talk about it #its like i need everyone to see my pain is real but i know nobody can do a thing about it

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#I hate that I am 95% golden retriever optimist #because I have nowhere to put the 5% shadow dog that wants to bark and snarl at everything that moves #I’m having trouble getting out of bed this morning #everything seems pointless #there’s no pleasure and no joy to look forward to #I mean I do my best with what I’ve got #I try to create my own meaning and I’m not waiting around for anyone to swoop in and save me #but I’m tired of being my own everything #(mentally spiritually sexually)#I want a partner in life’s joys and pleasures #but I’m just a cruise director #I cook nice dinners and I’ve been making confectionery treats lately #I keep the house clean and pick good entertainment #I choose places to go and plays to see #but there’s no luster #I want to wear my pretty skirts somewhere nice that I didn’t have to arrange myself #with someone who cares that I’m wearing them #and doesn’t have to be reminded to compliment me or tell me I’m pretty #maybe I expect too much? Hope for too much? AM too much?#but I don’t ask for a lot! not even vacations or fancy things!#anyway I’m tired #whatever bark snarl #guess I’ve found a bone to gnaw on #good day sir

I don’t know why I keep going.

#everything seems pointless #prsnl

considering again just trying to play abled.

bc i feel unworthy and my disability fluctuates based on the rest and activity I get.

So I could maybe just ... give up on getting better mobility aids and suffer

#i m tired and sad #everything seems pointless #i should just idk get better

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#i feel even worse talking here bc it's going to look so random:!:?:!!:!#i am just..... idk maybe im just delirious rn #sob sob sob sob sob #everything seems pointless

landlords are all bad and they should feel bad

#if i weren’t being forced to sign a new lease after being month-to-month since my previous lease ended #i would not be anywhere near the amount of pressure i’m currently under #yall i really don’t know what i’m going to do #all the options seem bad #everything seems pointless #time to liquidate and live in my car again?#sign a new lease and hope i figure out a way to get an income before it’s a problem?#say fuck it and try to go live on a farm?#i am so lost rn #and i have no one to talk to about it #personal

Should I take a year off of school?

#idk what im doing anymore #everything seems pointless #and i never feel like im learning anything useful #😔

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