#everythingisgonnabeokay

[stillebesat]

Another Cuddle Pile #stillephotos #hamsters #longhairedsyrians #teddybearhamsters #everythingisgonnabeokay https://www.instagram.com/p/B94TL_CghWS/?igshid=1bp6euq53k4a9

[invisiblemomuniverse-blog]

Stressed out.

Stressing out over everything recently. Been trying to get everything done right now. But nothing is turning out like I want it to. 

[mexicanpichu]

🎶Baby, baby, I feel crazy🎶 #taylorswift #zaynmalik #idontwannaliveforever #everythingisgonnabeokay

[uarenotalone16195-blog]

Hey, it’s gonna be OK. It’ll be OK.’”

The Rock

[aschmedai]

Oi, tudo bem? Passei para dar um "oi", sabe como estava e te levar daqui, mas infelizmente não a encontrei. Então estou deixando esse recado, para mostrar que tentei. Definitivamente, isso é um adeus... E dessa vez, eu prometo.

O menino que não lia livros

[doyoufeeltheworld]

I just feel free

Whenever the summer comes around, my soul searching begins.  I think about where I was a year ago, two years ago, three years ago, etc., and think how I have changed as a person and how my circumstances have changed.  I will not lie to you--this past year was wonderful in so many ways..but also rough.  Really rough.  

My mother finally fell off the deep end and hit rock bottom--the rock bottom that allowed her to realize she had a problem and face it head on.  It was a terrifying situation.  I never thought I would see my mother like that.  I never thought I was going to see the woman who raised me face her demons like that.  She is a wonderful women, she is a broken woman.  Despite the pain and the lies and the manipulation, I can't hate her.  She's like the rest of us--human and imperfect...I can't hate her for that.

I had my heart broken.  I was convinced I was fine.  I was convinced that everything was okay and that I was cool with the situation and everything was perfect, la la la la la. Hahaha, nah.  It wasn't.  I was lying to myself just to keep myself sane.  I was sad.  Really fucking sad and I didn't want to face that sadness.  It has taken me a while to not be sad--and when I mean a while, I mean a year full of distracting myself with work, school, the attention from other men, etc.

But here I am.  A year later and so grateful to feel what I am feeling...freedom.  

Without pain, there is no joy.  Some people disagree with this statement--believing joy is felt no matter what.  Well...yeah I agree.  But the thing is, if you don't understand desperate, loneliness, drenched in heartbreaking pain...how will you ever appreciate that morning you finally wake up and don't. give. a. damn. about who broke your heart.  The morning you realize that life moves on and you don't need them and you don't want them.  The moment you realize no matter how damaged someone is, they're still worth loving and cherishing and appreciating...  

...the moment you walk outside all day with your best friend who has been by your side through everything and remember this is all that matters--friendship, family, sunshine.  

Pain is inevitable.  But when joy finally envelopes you...it's..it's...freeing.  You're free.

[o0redelle0o]

I HATE THIS FEELING!

wtf is wrong with me?!