❤️ Definitely not the things that i'm seeing Did I think I see so instantly? I found a note in my grandfather's coat When I read it out loud I got cold It said I'm not complaining Yeah I was just saying I'm a man, I'm a lost one you see Come down with me to a place we'll get clean and we'll meet with them eventually You mean everything R.I.P. Grandpa! Never Did I Think This Would Be How I Would Say Goodbye. I'm Overcome With So Much Guilt and Remorse. Wishing I Did More. Wishing I Called More or At Least Before Your Passing. Wishing I Made More Trips To NYC To See You. This Good Friday I'm Shrouded In Melancholy As I Think Of The Past and Ponder On The Future. I Think Of You and Grandma Lillian Who Both Lived and Passed Away In NYC. I Think On The Negligence On My Behalf Not Being The Best At Keeping In Touch Or Not Going To See You. I Think Of The Woman I've Become and I Wonder If You Would Be Proud Of Her, Proud Of Me. I worry I Failed You As A Granddaughter. This Guilt Is Too Much To Carry. I Have To Let Go and Let God. Here's To Being Cathartic and Letting These Emotions Pour From Me Like Water In A Well. I Just Want You To Know That I Love You and I Hope You Didn't Die Feeling Alone. I Never Thought I Would Return To NYC To Lay You To Rest. This Was A Day I Hoped I Would Never Have To Face, Alas The Time Has Come. If I Could Impart Anything From This Tragedy ; It's Motivation To Be The Best Person and Woman That I Can Be. I Just Want To Make You Proud With Hopes That You Are Truly Pleased With The Woman I Am and The Woman I Am To Become. Rest In Peace. ❤️ #restinpeace #goodfriday #iloveyou #newyorker #islandbeauty #islandbeauty #carribean #manchesterorchestra #everythingtonothing #xoxomknation (at Queens, New York)