#evilyisme

[lenkadeer]

plant, cute art, an aesthetic™️, RelatableContent, and the greatest anime of our time, Homestuck

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[ceramicbeetle]

evilyisme replied to your post “me, realizing i’m feeling genuinely suicidal today: hm. troubling....”

when i’m anxious(but more restless/hyperactive feeling): “is there any work i can do right now? can i work ahead on anything? what needs to be done around my apartment? do i need a shower? what have i been meaning to do but haven’t gotten around to?” i find that if i keep myself busy with the small things, the big things become easier. it‘s easier to regulate my impulses and remind myself that “the fact that i feel bad, means i have more room to feel better”

thank you so much for all of your sweet and helpful comments on this post; they really helped! I’m feeling a lot more solid now, and i really appreciate you taking the time to write these out for me. thank you so much, I hope you have a wonderful day/night and that you feel better !

[neonpigeons]

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I don't got much but I got heart and soulI found myself through all the highs and lowsOh, will you drown in the pain or go dance in the rain?What are you living for, living for, living?

New Politics - One of Us

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[evilyisme]

I actually recorded this a few months ago, but I decided to finish editing it today. This is an original song in which I made an acapella background sound and improvised the main melody. (I'm sorry it's so short and I'm also sorry if you believe the background singing is a bit too much) It's basically about gaining self-esteem and leaving behind the things that have caused damage (or at least trying to). It's about not only physical pain, but mental and emotional pain. After all, sticks and stones may break my bones, but words can always hurt me. my lyrics: there’s a sinking feeling inside my heart though i don’t quite know just where it starts or where it ends or if it even has an end there’s a settled heaviness in my bones though it’s hardly enough to break me so i will keep limping forward ignore your folk lore there’s a leveled plane within my brain though i still ache in the exact same way no more of your lies your stories your insecurities i am free from all the times you hurt me don’t expect to stay when you hurt me i’ll leave the days behind from when you hurt me [sing to end] ~~~ The lyrics might not completely match up because I copied them from the recording and changed them to make them better (depends on what one defines as "better") cover art => http://riotfaerie.deviantart.com/art/Words-Hurt-401069548

[evilyisme]

I improvised on the piano again! (forgive me padre for I have sinned) I added in some phasing and synthesizer effects to the piano, as well as strings. (one could probably consider this a Homestuck piece because it was Homestuck that inspired the effects) This is meant to sound as though a free-thinking star became lost in space and started to involuntarily travel away from its original solar system and galaxy, reaching other stars and planets. One might imagine the star passing through an asteroid or meteor belt. Maybe hurtling by another planet with life, much like our own, the star keeps moving and learning until finally coming into contact with another shifting celestial body. However, neither have control over their movements, causing them to collide. They come to meet violently, though both stars had meant no harm. They shatter, burst, erupt, and explode in one swift motion. Static. Everything returns to the way it was. And no one will notice a difference for millions of years. Far too much of a passage of time for anyone or anything, to even care. There are no rules in space.

[xannerz]

evilyisme replied to your post: “agoddamn replied to your post: “few things make me more uncomfortable...”:

c:

THAT ONE

is actually really cute

C:!!

[evilyisme]

everything of mine has been nautical and/or water themed lately. last week i was messing around with the words “set sail” from another song of mine and ended up making an 6-part harmony of sorts. first, basses and tenors would enter, then altos, and then sopranos. (i had to sing the men’s line an octave above) after finishing the harmonies, i went ahead and improvised/recorded the main melody line once through, though i should have re-recorded it (you can probably hear my grandma doing the dishes in the background). then, i added in the guitar and another harmony above the main melody. i think it turned out pretty well, but you might have to turn up the volume for the last half. the lyrics for the main line are basically- now is the time to find the seas (x4) now is the time to find the sea now is the time to sail the seas i didn’t ask for this i didn’t ask to be alone now is the time to sail the seas (x2) now is the time to find the seas (x3) now is the time to find the- to find the- find the- (x8) the, the, the, the- (x5)

[evilyisme]

i feel like i could have edited this more, but oh well. art found->http://digital-art-gallery.com/picture/big/7957

alternatively titled “New And Improved” this is an original song about the consistent technological advancement of the world and the rise in price of a newer product vs. the drastic lowering worth of older models. it’s also about how far people will go to get what they want and the half-truths/little white lies that build upon one another until they become one big horrible reality(from 25 cents to 2 million dollars). numbers man. they define us. get the newly updated edition here only 25 cents 2 dollars an hour 53 a day four 12 dollars a week 8 thousand a month 2 million a year worth every tear, you shed it’s only 99 cents a life 99 years to mine 99 for life and in time 99 plus tears will be shed in time, dear, you too will realize in due time, it’s only 99 cents a life get your fully furnished apartment here only 25 men 1 dollar an hour for three guys a day and 12 cents a pop 8 thousand a week 2 million a year worth every tear you leak it’s only 99 cents a life 99 years to mine 99 for life and in time 99 plus tears will be shed in time, dear, you too will realize in due time, it’s only 99 cents a life a life, a life, a life, a life, a life, a life (x4) 99 years, 99 tears to shed, 99 years to life(x3) each minute feels like half a minute and each day feels like half a year each second feels like half an hour and each month feels like half a life gone by in fear fear for you for the the things you still can’t do of the the things you will never accomplish I wish, (99 years, 99 tears to shed, only 99 years left to fight, 99 lives) for one