#ex animo

[porumbita]

"there is no word to describe the way that you love: self-sacrificing, possessive, desperate. you are a lonely, desolate creature being devoured by the enormity of your intensity. do you think you will ever meet someone like you? someone who knows what agony it is when touch is not enough? when the body external has been exhausted? you love rarely but you love entirely. i cannot help but envy the person in whose ribs you build a church. the privacy of yourself is a disease. you will chew yourself into nothingness if you do not find someone to share yourself with — allow yourself trust."

[beauty-brains-and-batarangs]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

jeanmarco | 14k | rated M because the ancient Romans were DICKS and had some wonky understandings of how sex works | fluff and angst set in Rome ca. 64 CE

Marco is the son of a Roman Senator, living life according to the very strict expectations set out for him. On his one day of freedom, Marco finds himself caught in the cross-hairs of disaster, only to be rescued by a penniless metallurgist named Jean. Jean shows the Senator's son a life of freedom he's never known, but freedom comes at a price, as the two are soon to find out.

The Ancient Rome AU I never thought I'd be writing but am actually really thrilled about for @approaching-asymmetry

this was so much fun to write thank you for giving me all this freedom and FINALLY LETTING ME PUT MY DEGREE IN LATIN TO USE I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS DAY FOR AGES 

[yashasmonkgf]

don't mind me just casually crying over my phone while writing a letter from my dnd character to her travelling companions

[ofredrighthands]

B L R P TASK 01; THREE OF A KIND

01.

The past is not my concern. The future is no longer my concern, either.

THOMAS SHELBY OF THE PEAKY BLINDERS

From cockiness to being a member of a gang, Mitchell is much alike Thomas Shelby. Similarities between the two men are uncanny -- both of them formed an addiction that plays a vital part of their lives, both of them zealots in their beliefs and devotedness to the cause, both of them building the life they always dreamed of. 

There is an implied shift in personality for Thomas once he was back from the war and same did happen to Mitchell after taking a life for the first time -- both of them became more ruthless, more efficient problem solvers, eager and ready to do whatever it takes to survive.

Much like Thomas, Mitchell is always ready to do what it takes to protect the people that he cares about and that he considers family -- for Thomas, that is his family, and for Mitchell -- The Strix. 

"Do I look like a man, who wants a simple life?"

[porumbita]

everything

hurts

like that curious moment

when you drip melted wax

onto your skin

just to feel something

it smells like honey

and you want to

rub it into your skin

soak it

in

pores filled with painful pleasure

that stands

(it crumbles)

against everything you ever

stood

against

for

with

and yes

we grow

it is agony

it is

holy.

[porumbita]

"I was cursed with poetry very young"

[porumbita]

the enormity of my desire disgusts me.

[porumbita]

I have this constant need to tell people that I love them, that they matter, that they're special because even though I know those things, I seem to be unable to express them in a way that they understand the differences I make inside my chaos. I cannot love people the way they need to be loved, the way they want to be loved and I know that I'm in the wrong here, I am the broken piece in the puzzle, but I also cannot let them go once and for all. And I know that it is wrong of me to make them suffer so, by not being who I should be to them, but I'm selfish and I don't know if I will ever be truly able to love them enough to let them go. I guess there really needs to be a villain in every story, I just happen to be the one in mine.