26th April, 2021.
Monday.
23:16
As I write this, my country has 17.3M Covid cases and 195K deaths.
My country is dying and it breaks my heart so much to see what is going on around here. Everyday I open my instagram or I read the news, I am met with a new horrifying story. I wonder how is every new day worse than the previous one?
The fact that the government is doing nothing about this and instead making it worse by organising rallies and celebrating the Kumbh mela where thousands and thousands of people participated, makes me so angry so angry, it fills me up with so much of rage that I end up crying everytime I think about it.
We are running out of oxygen, we are running out of cemeteries to burn the dead, we are running out of hospital beds, we are running out of injections and medicines and the government is in denial of it. Instead the youth of this country and the influencers are doing the government's job by providing and helping people with resources for plasma, meds, beds, oxygen, etc. And now the government also has a problem with this because they've started censoring and shadowbanning these resources and people. None of which makes sense to me. I think about this everyday and everyday I feel so helpless.
But the show must go on, right? Our life must go on. So I try finding happiness in small little things. Most of the days I am overpowered with the news of what is going around but some days I don't go to sleep feeling sad. Like today, I cooked my whole family's dinner and they loved it and it made me so happy. Like day before yesterday when I talked my heart out to a friend and felt like someone is actually listening listening to me, like someone is there for me.
My heart goes out to everyone who is suffering, mentally or emotionally or physically, whether infected by the virus or not. I understand how the virus can take a toll on one's mental health as well as one's physical health. Please know that you are doing your best and you can always seek help. The world is a better place with you in it and that, you will will better some day. For every sunrise to come, the night has to pass.
Goodnight fellas, take care ❤
