#exmos

[gingershnek]

I am the snake that ruined mankind.

You've taken my legs-

Let me keep my head.

[inkweavers]

PIMO EXMOS, I need help

Any of ya'll willing to help a transfemme use the church's genealogical records to do independent research for a Doctor of History who's been burned by academia.

[gingershnek]

I'm realize just now that I'm satisfied with being treated with the bare minimum respect as a queer person because of my experience with religion. I've left the Mormon Church and am still separating from it more and more as I go along.

But these last few weeks, I've had the pleasure to make friends who have fought to make gender equality/queer equality known and understood in my local community. This made me think on why I don't stand up for myself when people misgender me, or why I don't pursue being more truly myself.

I think it's because of my flight from mormonism and the college environment. I officially left the Mormon Church about 4 or 5 months ago and since then have felt incredible relief. Since that time, I've spent lots of time deconstructing more things I was taught.

I still have friends who live with their faithful families. I have queer friends who have lost their faith, and live with families that likely treat then like mine treated me: with minimal respect and near animosity. Although I have released myself from mormonism a good bit, I still know so many people who are stuck in it. So much of me is stuck in mormonism that I barely allow myself space to be myself.

Also I don't have a lot of spending money and also college is so busy so I just wear what feels like the best balance of practical and good looking also tism doesn't like it when I deviate from the good fit. Also there's not a lot of opportunity to explore how I'd like to present myself.

Idk maybe it'll be better next semester if I get to live in gender neutral housing on campus.

[gingershnek]

It brings ms so much joy when my exmormon friends do shit they weren't allowed to do when they were mormon