The Expanse Aesthetics- James Holden for @disabilityfest made with @jamesholden
Living with Incurable Cancer
“ ‘You’re both dead.’ Naomi said. ‘Seriously, we had to override the triage filters on both of you more than once. The expert system kept clicking you over to hospice care and shooting you full of morphine.’ …Holden was quiet, Miller pretended not to notice. ‘Long-term estimates?’ ‘You’re both going to need to be checked for new cancers every month for the rest of your lives. [Holden] has a new implant where his thyroid used to be, since his real one was pretty much cooked down.’ “ -Naomi and Miller, The Expanse #1 Leviathan Wakes “She stopped at a dark spot on his stomach. ‘You still taking your cancer meds?’ ‘Everyday.’ For the rest of my life, he didn’t add.” -Naomi and Holden, The Expanse #4 Cibola Burn ” ‘I’m running low on my cancer meds.’ Holden said. ‘Radioactive rain ain’t gonna help with that.’ ’Was my thought.’ -Holden and Amos, The Expanse #4 Cibola Burn ” ‘Do you have any selective apoptosis catalysts on board?’ ’Oncocidals? Sure, anti-cancer meds are standard.’ ’Would you send some down in the shuttle?… Holden needs them. He caught a lot of rems on Eros. It’s not a big thing when we have a med bay, but he pops a new tumor every month or two.’ “ -Naomi and Havelock, The Expanse #4 Cibola Burn “ ‘Oh!,’ Elvie said. ‘It’s his oncocidals. After the Eros incident, he had to go on a permanent course of them. And that means… oh! That’s so pretty.’ ‘…Why would his anti-cancer meds work on something from a different biospheare?… this means we can treat the eye thing, right?’ ‘What? Oh. Yeah, probably. It’s not like oncocidals are hard to sythesize. Just most of us don’t need a constant course the way Holden does.’” - Elvie and Fayez, The Expanse #4 Cibola Burn “ ‘You’re taking medications for a chronic and potentially terminal condition. We are discussing whether or not to use your medication to treat other patients and leave you without.’ ’That’s fine.’ ’Ethetically, it’s actually a little problematic. If I’m going to do this, and I very much want to, I need to know that you understand-’ ’I do, I do, I do. I’ve sucked down enough radiation that I bloom tumors a lot. The thing that keeps it under control does that thing with the other thing. And then there are other people and I can take a nap… Use it, go ahead. We’ll get more if we can’ ‘And if we can’t?’ ‘I might grow a new tumor before we starve. I might not. I’m okay with that.’ “ -Holden and Lucia, The Expanse #4 Cibola Burn “ ‘We’re getting up to the same age [he] was when he stroked out on a burn. And you’ve been on daily anticancer meds for more than half your life now. It doesn’t matter how good they are, that’s going to take a toll on your system. Leave you a little fragile. So the other thing we can do? Sell our shares. Head down to Titan, pick a resort, and enjoy our retirement.” -Naomi to Holden, The Expanse #7 Persepolis Rising
[ID: A three by three moodboard predominantly in black, white, grey, and orange. Black text on white background, “I’ll do this my way”. All caps white text on black background, “sometimes you gotta say it out loud! Fuck cancer”. All caps grey text on white background, “don’t carry the world upon your shoulders”. A cascade of orange pill bottles, pills fall out around them. A head shot of Wentworth Miller, he is a mixed race man with a shaved head and intense gaze. An orange hazmat suit. A black placard saying, “bi-furious”. Black text on white paper, “For those who dare to hope”. All caps digital style white text on a black background, “a new drug to save humanity”. End ID.]