So I saw this youmakemesoangry/tumblr/com/post/136071002719/kynimdraws-draw-your-otp-in-these and I couldn't help but think yea obviously stiles would be in the sin shirt, leaving Derek to be in the black shirt which I couldn't help but think it could be Stiles saying "Listen, you're gonna wear this until you get it through your think skull" and even though Derek's giving him the look (the one thats just a strained "Stiles") his eyes have such a fond look to it like thanks wow ok UGH the feelsss
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Oh my god, I am so sorry, my brain just went in entirely different direction with this and I APOLOGISE but I need to get it out now.
Imagine some sort of college party that’s held at the beginning of every year for people to go to and hook up at. Like, this is held for people who just want to let go and fool around and get laid who maybe find it really difficult to meet new people. There are just two rules: you can pressure anyone into sex if they don’t want it, and two, you have to wear a t-shirt telling everyone if you are a virgin/inexperienced/find it hard to meet people, or if you are there to help people have a good time. The “sin” t-shirts are for those who want to help people have a good time, bring them out of their shell. The “not guilty” t-shirts are for everyone else.
Okay, so enter Stiles wearing the “sin” t-shirt. He loves sex, but what he loves even more is helping people feel comfortable in their bodies. Stiles still isn’t the most secure of people, he still kind of hates his body and suffers from low self esteem, but it’s gotten better since college and if he can help anyone feel better about themselves, he is going to do it. He may be an asshole a lot of the time, but he gets feeling insecure. He gets the need to be loved and liked. He gets wanting to be wanted.
And then enter Derek, wearing a “not guilty” t-shirt. Everyone thinks when Derek turns up at the party he’s going to be wearing a “sin” t-shirt because this is Derek-bad-boy-Hale. Derek has a reputation. He wears leather jackets and doesn’t hang out with anyone except a select group of people and generally glares at anyone who tries to talk to him. There is also something to do with a fire in his story, but there are so many rumours about that people just make up their own minds about it.
Everyone is actually kind of afraid to approach Derek, and the ones who try just get glared at. Stiles knows about Derek, of course he does, they used to live in the same town. He knows about the fire, hates the way people talk about it like it’s some super cool mystery and maybe now and again starts arguments with people who talk shit about Derek. Because he knows Derek, okay? He knows what kind of guy he used to be, what kind of guy he is now, and Stiles likes both. Far more than he would like to admit. And maybe Stiles goes up to Derek, just to say hi, not thinking it’s going to go anywhere, but then Derek…he just kind of melts and gets really shy??? Stiles smiles and he ducks his head, frowning slightly, but Stiles is close enough to see the blush on his cheeks and…well…somehow they end up back at Stiles’ apartment.
And at first there is kissing, there is touching and panting…but then Derek notices Stiles’ collection of DVDS. He notices his Hitchcock collection and gets really excited because Derek loves Hitchcock, okay?, He’s seen very single movie and even though his movies are famous, he’s never met anyone before who loves him too. And maybe they get to talking about their favourites and end up watching all the Jimmy Stewart ones because they both really love Jimmy Stewart.
And instead of sex, cuddling happens and popcorn and blankets. And that’s how they fall asleep half way through watching Rear Window and it’s perfect. And then they somehow just start…dating, and Derek makes Stiles feel good about himself for a change, and Stiles makes sure Derek is treated right and still gives hell to anyone who tries to touch or bad mouth his boyfriend.
And of course Derek gets Stiles to wear the “sin” t-shirt sometimes because he gets stupidly adorably turned on by it, especially when it’s wet. Stiles ends up doing one of those cheesy water bottle strip teases - he only ends up choking a little bit- and Derek laughs but not in a mean way. His erection doesn’t even flag as Stiles walks towards him, eyes stinging a little- he probably shouldn’t have used flavoured water- and, yeah, just this, forever. Easy, happy, being good for each other in all the right ways. Always.
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Teen Wolf (TV)
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski
Characters: Derek Hale, Stiles Stilinski
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - College/University, Virgin Derek, Experienced Stiles Stilinski, Bottom Derek, Fluff, Praise Kink, Alternate Universe - Werewolves Are Known
Summary:
“So,” Stiles says. “How do you want to do this?”
“How do I want you to take my virginity?” Derek’s eyes widen. “Gee, I don’t know, Stiles. That’s why I asked you.”
@butterfliesandbellinis asked me to post this to a03, so here it is in case y’all would like to read it on there <3 (Because shhhh, a03 can never have enough in the bottom!Derek tag. It’s, like, the law or something.)
Psssst, experienced!Stiles reassuring virgin!Derek that he's not leaving him after just popping his cherry, cuddling him and petting him and making sure he understands that he's in this for the long haul and not leaving in the morning like he should but instead calling out of work and making Derek breakfast to prove he's not going to abandon him, reassuring him every time Derek starts feeling bad about his insecurities that his concerns are valid and Stiles doesn't mind soothing them <3
What I love most about this is Stiles assuring Derek what he’s feeling is valid.
Let’s go with Kate never having slept with Derek, but she sure made him feel like he was the reason they never did, making him feel unworthy of any kind of attention or affection and after the fire these thoughts only grew. When he and Laura moved to New York he always thougt about going out and losing his virginity- he needed a distraction, he wanted to feel something that wasn’t guilt, he didn’t want to feel numb with the pain any more. But every time he works up the courage to do it, he just can’t because he knows he will only be left in the morning and even if it is only a one night stand, Derek just can’t bear the thought of another person leaving him. Of losing someone else, no matter how short a time he has known them for.
Eventually they move back to Beacon Hills where Derek meets Stiles. Stiles who sees Derek through the window of the camaro as they drive through town and recognises him instantly. Stiles who turns up at the Hale house with some milkshakes and a “I never thought I’d see you again”. Stiles who Derek remembers from the night of the fire, a small eight year old kid who had just lost his mom but decided holding Derek’s hand was more important than his own pain.
Stiles who has grown up since Derek last saw him.
Stiles who is with Derek the night Peter attacks Laura, but sensing something is off drags Derek out into the Preserve after her where Derek stops Peter and kills him.
That’s the night he finds out about werewolves and even though Stiles knows Derek knows he would never tell anyone, Derek pushes him away because it’s his wolf that Kate found so disgusting and Stiles is a curious kid- once the shock wears off he’s bound to feel the same way. Or, at least, he’ll never accept him like Derek wants him to.
It’s a few years later before they see each other again. Derek and Laura are back in New York and Stiles has just moved out there for college. They meet in a coffeshop and Derek doesn’t know what happens, but one moment he is standing in line for his usual post-morning run coffee, and the next he’s laughing with Stiles on a park bench outside.
Stiles doesn’t look at that different, but he’s more filled out than he used to be and he has several tattoos on his right forearm which he explains is to do with this thing called a Spark. He doesn’t know all there is to know about it yet, but Stiles explains that’s why he chose a college in New York because there are people here who are willing to train him. He doesn’t mention the werewolf thing, but he doesn’t look at Derek any differently than he used to either and Derek feels his heart clench in something like hope. He tries to ignore it because Stiles is probably with someone but before he realises what he is doing he is asking Stiles over to dinner because “Laura would love to see you”.
After that, Derek sees Stiles almost everyday. He studies at their apartment and on weekends he brings them pie when he finishes at the diner he works at. On those nights Derek and him end up talkig to 3 in the morning and it just becomes a thing that Stiles doesn’t go home, passing out on the couch and sometimes in Derek’s bed- although Derek always leaves to go his run before Stiles wakes up, not wanting to wake to find Stiles gone before him.
Stiles goes out with a lot of people and Derek dies a little inside each time he hears about a great pair of legs or some weird, sexual act Derek has never even heard of until Stiles tells him about it. He never tells Stiles he is a virgin, feeling embarrassed given how experienced Stiles is- that and the way Stiles talks implies he assumes Derek has sex all the time. Derek would correct him, has wanted to for so long, but something stops him every time.
Then there is one day Stiles is sitting with Derek and Laura watching a movie and he gets a call from someone and Derek can’t help his werewolf hearing as he overhears some girl talking about what a great time she had with him the other night and if he wanted to do something tonight. It’s already 11pm so Derek knows what she is implying and his heart sinks a little further because he’s in love with Stiles and he doesn’t know how to say it. He’s too scared to tell him because he’s also the best thing in his life without being more. Derek could happily live with Stiles as a friend all his life, it’s just, he knows that life couldn’t be Stiles dating and then getting married some day too. It would kill him. Laura senses his distress, of course she knows how he feels even if he never told her, and she puts a hand on his shoulder, squeezing it gently.
But the thing is, Stiles doesn’t say yes to whoever this girl is, he simply says “I’m at a friend’s tonight. Maybe another time” before saying bye and hanging up. Derek is pretty confused and makes a joke, saying isn’t sex better than watching Star Wars for the fifth time this week with him and Stiles just turns to him and says deadly serious, “it’s Star Wars Derek- Laura tell him!” He shakes his head and takes another slice of pizza before smiling. And then whispers, so softly Derek knows Stiles has forgotten (again) that he can hear him no matter how quiet, “I’ll always choose you”.
The first time they kiss, Derek doesn’t expect it. More so because he’s the one to initiate it. Stiles is just standing there in the grocery store, complaining about cereal and false vitamin advertsisiing and something about his dad and Derek just leans in, his body moving before his mind can catch up and before he knows it his lips are on Stiles’ and he’s kissing him. Stiles doesn’t respond and Derek immediately goes to pull back because he’s read this all wrong, what had he ever been thinking, Stiles just sees him as a friend, oh god oh god oh god, but then Stiles is pulling him back in, whispering something about “finally” and kissing Derek in a way he has never been kissed before. It makes him literally go weak at the knees and he grabs onto Stiles’ shoulders for support, heart beating happily when he opens his eyes and sees Stiles’ face with this adorable, dopey grin on it.
It takes a while for Derek to talk about sex to Stiles, but Stiles never pushes him in to it. He’s perfectly happy to just kiss and cuddle- something Derek wouldn’t have believed if it wasn’t for the fact Stiles’ heartbeat remained steady the whole tim he said it. It takes him even longer to admit to being a virgin, to open up about Kate and what happened and Stiles just holds him after while he lets it all out, years of having no-one to talk to taking their toll on him as he just sobs into Stiles’ shoulder and confesses everything.
Stiles helps him tell Laura and Derek doens’t know what he expected, but it isn’t for his sister to hug him and tell him it isn’t his fault. Derek never even knew he needed to hear that until she said it, but it’s only when Stiles looks at him the same way he always has, nodding his head as Laura continues to hold him, that he begins to realise that maybe it’s okay to trust that he is capable of being loved like anyone else.
The first time they have sex it’s slow. Everything about it is slow and Derek doesn’t feel like he can breathe at times because Stiles never stops looking at hime, checking if he is okay, kissing him when he begins to tremble. He touches him everywhere, grounding him, encouraging Derek to do the same when he sees Derek’s hesistance in wanting to make sure this is real, that Stiles is really here with him. Stiles is beautiful when he comes, his mouth slack and his eyes soft and Derek has never felt so lucky, so at ease, but the moment Stiles pulls out all his insecurties about himself rear their ugly heads. What if Stiles realises he doesn’t want him after all? What if the sex wasn’t good for him? What if he leaves and says he just wants to remain friends? What if he leaves for good? Logically, Derek knows Stiles wouldn’t do that to him, not in knowing how huge a step sex was in the first place for Derek, but it doesn’t stop him from wondering if deep down Stiles just doesn’t know how to tell Derek he doesn’t actually want this. Want him. He falls asleep like that, desperately trying to take comfort in the weight of Stiles’ arms around him, but a the same time terrified this is the last time he will ever feel them.
When he wakes up though, Stiles isn’t gone. His nose is nuzzling Derek’s neck and then suddenly Derek’s face is being peppered with kisses and a lazy “good morning”. Derek opens his mouth to say good morning in return, but a sob comes out instead, from relief or frusrtation at himself he doesn’t know. He turns away, embarrassed, but Stiles follows him, literally rolling on top of him and stroking his hair until Derek finally managges to take a deep breath and say, “I don’t want you staying with me because you feel you have to.”
Stiles looks at him for a moment and then sighs. “I don’t want to leave.” His heartbeat is steady, but Derek can’t fully believe his own ears and he shakes his head, repeating his words again.
“Okay, how about this, I love you and if you are into the whole marriage thing, I want to do that some day with you too. If not, I’m just happy to be here for whatever ride you take me on, Derek. Got it?”
Derek nods, but his eyes must betray his doubt because Stiles looks heart broken for a second before schooling his features and making some joke about pancakes being a must after good sex. That they should go make some and then watch a movie because Stles took work off especially to spend the day with him. Derek doesn’t know how to fix that look though, doesn’t know how to respond to Stiles’ skilled attempts at deflection- at least not when it comes to him- and so he just remains silent, unable to look Stiles in the eye.
“It’s okay that you don’t believe me,” Stiles says then, sliding back down on to the bed until he is resting his head on Derek’s chest. “Because I am going to be here eveyday reminding you that I want to stay until you do.”
Derek’s heart beat increases at that and he looks up at the ceiling, biting his lip and trying to swallow the lump in his throat at the thought Stiles is really staying.
“Okay,” Derek whispers after a while. “Okay.”
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Part of me thinks you wanted me to respond with maybe a highscool AU here or something not as, uh, detailed, maybe more ficcy (is that word I can use?) but I hope you liked it anyway nonnie!
