#insecure!derek

[christinesficrecs]

Hello!! I hope you’re having an amazing day your blog literally means so much to me.

If this isn’t too much to ask, I would really love some angsty low self esteem Sterek fics. Happy ending only, though. It could be either insecure!Derek or insecure!Stiles, I’m good with either! I really appreciate it :) thank you!

That's so nice!! 🥰 These are only a little angsty, because I'm me. ;) And I possibly tripped over some mutual pining fics. 🤷🏻‍♀️

Bravery is a Loaded Gun by DefNotForWork | 17.3K | Explicit

In which the boys speak in half sentences and have two totally different conversations. What they can agree on, eventually, is that they love each other. And that Derek should jerk off more.

Convenient by  exclamation | 10.7K

Stiles knows what he is to Derek: convenient. He knows that Derek isn’t looking for a relationship, just someone to have casual sex with. Which is why Stiles is so surprised to find Derek setting up a romantic dinner for Valentine’s Day.

It’s Been Four Hundred and Ninety Days by paradis | 4.4K

It’s been four hundred and ninety days, and it took Derek forever but they’re at day one again.

I Just Want You For My Own (More Than You Could Ever Know) by yodasyoyo | 16K

“What is with that sweater, dude?”

Derek ducks his head to look at it, abashed. “Uh- Mrs Hernandez knitted it for me. It’s an early Christmas gift.” He smooths it down self-consciously.

Stiles cocks an eyebrow.

“What? She’s my neighbor and sometimes I-” Derek trails off. Stiles’ other eyebrow rises to join the first, and Derek sighs. “Sometimes I help her carry her groceries."

Of course he does. One day maybe Stiles will stop being in love with Derek Hale, but today is not that day.

Hide by dr_girlfriend | 12.4K | Explicit

Stiles has been rejected so many times that it doesn’t really surprise him when it happens again. Hurts, yeah, because dammit — he’d thought Derek was the one. Heartbreak sucks, and he’s not so sure he’s going to get over it this time.

Incommunicado by WhoNatural | 5.4K | Mature

Why is Derek being so weird?

Derek looks up from where he’s adjusting his shirt back into his pants - really? - and pauses. “Stiles?”

Clearly something in his scent is giving him away, but he’s too busy swallowing against the sting of bile that has made its way into his throat and checking behind the couch for future murder victims because Derek is totally cheating on him.

Cookies, coffee and shut the fucupcakes by DropsOfAddiction | 26.2K | Explicit

“Ok. I’ve got a few shirts with me because I came here straight from work, but I think it’s going to be a tight fit. I know I’m not as skinny as I used to be but I’m not exactly the same hunky physique as you, oh grand macho werewolf,” Stiles shrugs.

Derek runs his eyes blatantly over Stiles’ chest.

“I’m not so sure about that,” Derek mutters, and he slams his mouth shut, teeth audibly clacking together, as if he really hadn’t meant to say that out loud.

And Dwell Beneath My Shadow by lielabell | 8.6K

Derek is not stupid. He gets why Stiles puts up with him. It’s clear every time Stiles looks at him, the spicy scent of lust and arousal Stiles’s body can’t help but put off. It doesn’t surprise him. Not at all. Derek knows what he looks like, knows that his face and his body are more than enough to compensate for his shitty personality. Stiles wants him more than he is annoyed by him. Nothing more, nothing less. It’s not anything to be amazed over, nothing to write home about. Stiles isn’t the first– and most likely won’t be the last– hormone soaked teen who has panted over Derek. 

A Little Sugar by exclamation | 4.9K | Mature

The first time they had sex, it was after Derek paid Stiles’ rent. The second time was after Derek bought Stiles’ groceries. It wasn’t hard to work out the pattern. Derek hates himself for taking advantage of Stiles and tries to convince him that any form of payment is unnecessary, but he can’t seem to break the cycle.

waiting for you to say it first by paradis | 8.2K

Four months.

Four months they’ve managed to avoid one another. Stiles quit going to pack meetings. He quit doing research unless Scott really, really begged him to. He avoided driving the road that led out to the turnoff to the Hale house, he avoided going to all the spots where Derek might possibly be. Four months, and now, here they are, standing in the Minit Mart, Stiles thinks, staring down at the grimy tiles. He can hear the catch of Derek’s breath, and he closes his eyes and breathes deep.

Safety in Silence by Survivah | 66.9K

It’s perfectly understandable. Even Derek wouldn’t want to be Derek’s soulmate.

Relationship Status: It's complicated by kellifer_fic | 4K | Mature

Okay, I know this is a huge stretch for you, but can you please pretend you're like, into me?

Have It All by doc_sock | 5.8K

Derek is glad that he and Stiles are fuck buddies, really. So he wants more than that. So what? It’s not like what he wants is important.

Stay, Stay, Stay by  drunktuesdays | 2.2K

He should have expected this. He knew it, knew Stiles was always in this temporarily. Derek knew it wasn’t forever. The only thing that’s surprising is that Stiles is lying about it.

Closer Than Most by Finduilas | 46.9K | Explicit

Laura organizes a charity bachelor auction to raise money for the wolf sanctuary she and Derek inherited from their parents. Derek reluctantly gets roped into bidding on one of the bachelors, and he sure as hell doesn't know what he's getting himself into when he decides to bid on Stiles.

A Question of Pack by CawCawMF | 5.2K

Stiles had always been sure of his place in the pack. That place being the absolute lowest tier in the hierarchy of werewolf pack dynamics, but he was sure of it all the same. He wasn’t necessary exactly, since just about anyone could conduct research on supernatural mythology, but his job was still important to the pack and he felt good about that. At least, that’s what he always thought. That all came crumbling down one sunny afternoon in the form of Jackson’s big mouth.

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got a little crush on you by starcanopus (1/1 | 9,537 | T)

[Stiles Stilinski Plays ‘Who’d You Rather?’] TheEllenShow ✓ 1.9M views • 1 day ago

Ellen helped the very single Stiles Stilinski find a potential love match in a round of “Who’d You Rather?”

[wheredidhiseyebrowsgo]

Hey I was wondering if anyone knows the fic where Stiles gets taught by two warlock brothers to be a powerful magic user whilst being a model? Making the pack and especially Derek realize he’s super hot and a bamf.

Nonny got you!

You're stronger than you know by Littleredridinghunter

(15/15 | 234,195 | Rape/NonCon | Sterek)

Set at the end of season 2, Stiles survives his encounter with Gerard and his goons, but it isn't easy.

The pack are letting him down again, his dad is not speaking to him, his life is just generally falling apart.

Until he has to get a bronze dagger to kill a siren and his whole world gets flipped on it's head!

[acropaquia]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Teen Wolf (TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski Characters: Derek Hale, Stiles Stilinski, Lydia Martin Additional Tags: Established Relationship, Future Fic, Misunderstandings, Insecure Derek Hale, Angst With a Happy Endings Summary:

Derek knows Stiles loves him. After three years together and having Stiles' attention constantly on him, doting on him, it would be hard not to believe it. It's just that he also knows Stiles loves Lydia more.

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Derek eating to cope with PTSD and nightmares. Some nights aren’t bad, and the post-sex haze or having Stiles tightly curled against his chest is enough. Other nights it isn’t. He stared sneaking to the kitchen so the TV could lull him back to sleep without waking Stiles. It didn’t help, so slowly snacks while watching the late night infomercials became a habit. Then late night meals. If Stiles notices anything, he hasn’t said anything to Derek. Sure, they’re shopping for food almost three times a week now, but he lives with a werewolf and constantly has Scott and the pack over, so that’s not unusual. But then Derek starts getting chubby. At first, Derek can pass it off as as more sedentary lifestyle; settling down, spending more of his time relaxing with Stiles then working out. But then his Derek’s little belly starts turning into a full-blown gut, forcing him to keep sizing up his clothes, wobbling as he thrusts into Stiles, and sitting further in his lap. Derek can’t easily stop his night binges because they help him sleep - he can now sleep through the night, no more waking up with claws extended, panicked he might have finally hurt Stiles. So instead he starts eating less during the day.  Stiles notices and asks him about it. Derek shrugs it off and says he’s trying to lose some weight. Stiles is supportive (you are still unfairly hot either way) but he pays even more attention to Derek’s fleshy bits in the bedroom. Derek doesn’t gain weight as fast anymore, but the numbers on the scale (223 fuck he can’t have gained over fifty pounds in a year) are not going down. He starts panicking a little. Stiles has been seemingly okay with his weight so far but all Derek really has is his looks and he’s a few pounds past “adorably chubby” and headed to being simply fat.  Stiles wakes up one night and wanders sleepily downstairs to find Derek sitting on the couch. Derek tries to hide the empty ice cream pint and the almost gone pan of macaroni and cheese, but he knows the dirty spoon on the table and his stuffed gut speak for themselves.  Stiles has so much he wants to say - it makes sense now, the missing food, Derek’s steadily climbing weight, the constant insistence he has the nightmares under control. But he does’t know how to convey any of that to Derek, because simply telling him it’s okay -  that Stiles is glad he found someway to cope and the extra weight is more than good with him - is not enough.  Derek tries to stutter explanations and apologies and the insecurity in his eyes break Stiles’ heart. So he just sits next to Derek on the couch, leaning into him so his head is nestled on Derek's chest. I love you, Der. He starts rubbing small circles into Derek’s bloated stomach until he feels the older man relax. It doesn’t take either of them long to fall asleep. Slowly, it becomes their nightly routine. Stiles keeps Derek company on the couch until they both fall asleep (seriously, you are way better than a pillow. So much better). Derek gradually becomes comfortable enough to eat before he crawls into bed, no longer feeling like he has to wake up and hide this shameful secret from Stiles. (Who does not find it shameful. At all. If anything, he’s shamefully too into this newfound kink.) The nightmares become less and less frequent with the constant full, sated feeling in his stomach and Stiles’ continual adoration. 

[christinesficrecs]

Hi could I ask for a specific plot? I saw a prompt but couldn't find a fic. Its either Stiles or Derek who thinks they're not good enough for the other one for some reason. Established relationship, angst with a happy ending? Thanks in advance! - ginnyofgryffindor

Sure.

And Dwell Beneath My Shadow by lielabell | 8.6K

Derek is not stupid. He gets why Stiles puts up with him. It’s clear every time Stiles looks at him, the spicy scent of lust and arousal Stiles’s body can’t help but put off. It doesn’t surprise him. Not at all. Derek knows what he looks like, knows that his face and his body are more than enough to compensate for his shitty personality. Stiles wants him more than he is annoyed by him. Nothing more, nothing less. It’s not anything to be amazed over, nothing to write home about. Stiles isn’t the first– and most likely won’t be the last– hormone soaked teen who has panted over Derek. 

waiting for you to say it first by paradis | 8.2K

Four months.

Four months they’ve managed to avoid one another. Stiles quit going to pack meetings. He quit doing research unless Scott really, really begged him to. He avoided driving the road that led out to the turnoff to the Hale house, he avoided going to all the spots where Derek might possibly be. Four months, and now, here they are, standing in the Minit Mart, Stiles thinks, staring down at the grimy tiles. He can hear the catch of Derek’s breath, and he closes his eyes and breathes deep.

Safety in Silence by Survivah | 66.9K

It’s perfectly understandable. Even Derek wouldn’t want to be Derek’s soulmate.

Have It All by doc_sock | 5.8K

Derek is glad that he and Stiles are fuck buddies, really. So he wants more than that. So what? It's not like what he wants is important.

the other shoe by stilinskisparkles | 4.6K

They’re lounging on Derek’s bed one afternoon, Stiles halfheartedly trying to make headway on an essay, and Derek’s supposedlyhelping. Instead, Derek’s spent the last eight minutes mouthing lazily at Stiles’ shoulder, and Stiles is five seconds from giving up completely.

Tell Me You've Had Enough (My Dear We Still Have Everything) by crossroadswrite | 5.7K

“So,” he starts, pressing his lips together like he only does when he’s trying really hard not to cry. “What’s the best day of the week to potentially find out you’re pregnant with your ex’s baby? Because I feel like Thursday night sucks as a day to find that out.”

Wait by cutloosemcgoose | 23.4K

Sitting on his couch, staring at the wall, it feels like Derek is watching his whole, miserable, lonely life flash before his eyes. He’s twenty four and he’s alone. No family, no friends, no real pack. He’s six days away from spending one of the most family-oriented holidays of the year trying to avoid any human interaction. If anyone could see him right now, they would tell him he looks pathetic. If Laura could see him right now, she would probably beat the crap of him and then tell him he’s a loser.

[wheredidhiseyebrowsgo]

Can you offer any fics where stiles or derek (not necessarily together) are being praised and complimented and get embarrassed annoyed or frustrated

I kind of found one. There’s a ton of praise kink but not praise not kink...anti praise kink. Something. - Anastasia

Tell Me You Love Me, But Tell Me the Truth by Lehuitt

(1/1 I 10,062 I Teen I Sterek)

He looked over at the younger man, hands moving with surprising grace as he cut up a pepper. The light was soft in the kitchen, causing his long eyelashes to cast shadows on his pale cheeks. Derek’s eyes took in the moles scattered on his face and down his neck like stars spread out against the sky. His eyebrows were pulled down as he concentrated, making his nose scrunch up in a way that Derek could only describe as adorable.

Stiles scooped up the dices of pepper and dropped it in the large silver bowl in front of Derek. His tongue poked out of the side of his mouth as he moved on to the next pepper. Derek felt mesmerized.

Stiles was captivating. His mind was echoing with the words, “You are so beautiful.”

Light brown eyes snapped up to meet his and he realized he had said it out loud.

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not like everything i do depends on you by lynnwrites (1/1 | 2,196 | T)

Derek has a problem, and—as with most teenagers—this problem is a crush. That doesn’t sound too bad, you might think, except Derek’s crush has been appearing at the Hale family dinner table for two nights a week for the past three months. Yes, Derek’s crush is about five foot eleven, speckled with moles, and, oh yeah, Cora’s French tutor.