a little too late, a little too early
Sexuality!! - the dreaded word in the dictionary of anyone who's been raised under a super strict, super patriarchal household. Sexuailty is something you repress, ignore and pretend it doesnt exist, till it hits you like a thuderbolt. What do we do, when we don't know what to do? you come up with a million reasons to justify why it is only reasonable to hold yourself and your sexual urges accountable for every single thought that could lead you astray. You write diaries & journals filling up entries of how you have somehow managed to dodge the sexual ball with one of your 'it's not me!' card. And then finally arrives a day, a moment, a reckoning that all that you were running away from, because patriarchy taught you so, has been running towards you at the speed of a sonic blast. And there you are, face to face with your dreaded supressed Id, your true self, and a natural expression of who you are - and then you just dont embrace that side of you, your devour it with every cell of your being - interlinked.
