#f.e

[twinsfox]

If you picked anything but Black Eagles you’re a loser

[dear--charlie]

Dear Ex,

oh man, after all this time you still have my heart

F.e

[dear--charlie]

Dear Charlie,

we had a sunny life but when the first clouds covered the sun, you left me. You took my umbrella with you and now I’m standing in the rain waiting for you to come back

F.e

[dear--charlie]

Dear Charlie,

he’s my sore point and 

i’m scared he’ll always be

F.e

[dear--charlie]

Dear Charlie,

today he tried to call me, 4 months after our breakup, after all the pain he put me through. i hate him and at the same time i miss him while reading his text messages. i still know how he pronounced every single word. i want my man back but it’s too late, he destroyed my soul and i’m not the same person anymore. pls stop the pain, i feel it in my bones and i can’t breathe… shall i block him Charlie? i love him but he hurted me so much

F.e

[dear--charlie]

Dear Ex,

no matter how many times you put me through hell, i can say i loved and i still love you. I’m sad and sometimes also angry that you declined all the love i gave to you. And i don’t understand why you had to make us both sad. I realized that you never wanted my help, you had locked away your feelings years ago to protect yourself from renewed disappointment. I thought i could save your soul, but i couldn’t reach you. Despite all the pain you intentionally put me through, i hope you find someone who can heal the little child inside of you. A person that can see all the potential i once saw in you, a person who can bring out your love like i did. It still hurts like hell because i know i have to let you go, i’ll let you go with all my love. I forgive you and i hope you forgive me as well.

F.e

[dear--charlie]

Dear Charlie,

why do i miss him so bad? I want to forget him, i want my heart back. I loved him with all of my heart and he never gave us a second chance. He became so evil that i don’t want to know him anymore. Normally i have a good knowledge of human nature but he reimains my unsolved puzzle. Even his friends say he is unpredictable now. I always thought i was the bomb but he was and i was too close to him when he exploded. He left me in pieces.

F.e

[dear--charlie]

Dear Charlie,

hey it’s me again. I thought i would never get to the point again where i see no future for myself anymore. To the point where everything is so fucking exhausting. I broke up with my boyfriend because he made me feel worse but i still love him so much. So yesterday i met him again, he wanted to see me too, he gave me the feeling this time he would change, he would try to comfort me again like at the start of our relationship. Oh Charlie i was so wrong, i was waiting for him at his flat because he told me he had to do some stuff for work. I was okay with it, so i sat there at 7p.m waiting. He told me he’s almost home, then again he wanted to meet a friend. I was okay with it again.    At 11p.m. he said he’s with this friend, he wanted to discuss our relationship. Well i really believed they would sit at a bar talking and then he would come home and speak to me. Oh Charlie and again i was so wrong. I worried a lot at 2 a.m and i cried because the whole stuff makes me suffer so much. I lost 20lbs in the last 2 weeks and i have to throw up every night. When he got home at 6 a.m, he told me he was partying in the club and that i had the chance to come too. I mean first i wasn’t in the mood and second he didn’t tell me. He keeps telling me he has feelings for me but he treats me like shit. I give him so much love and he makes me feel bad and does nothing about it.                                                                                                                Could someone tell me pls how they got over the pain of an abusive relationship?  Can pls someone tell me that he isn’t going to change and that i’m strong enough to move one. That i will survive this and that it doesn’t define me even though i’m always the person who comes back?

F.e