the distance between us - LN1
when your relationship gets distant, Lando doesn't think you'd be the one to "leave" from it. ─────────────────── pairing: boyfriend!lando x fem!reader contains: swearing, angst, happy ending tho word count: 2.1k authors note: hii im back once again :) i decided to make my own headers from now on, not sure how i feel about it but lmk if you like it!! im gonna be back tomorrow with a request, enjoy reading x ─────────────────── The house you shared with Lando was quiet with only the faint sound of the TV playing, and to be honest you got used to it. Every day was the same: wake up, simulator, training, go to sleep, repeat. You didn't blame him, really, it was his job afterall right? But where do you fit in this routine?
Your relationship with Lando seemed too perfect at first. You supported him whenever you could, constantly going to his races and spending most of your weekends with him or his family. He always surprised you with dates, little gifts, or trips for the two of you to get away from all the chaos surrounding you.
You yourself don't even know where it went wrong. All of those little surprises? Gone. All of your little cute plans together? Also gone. At first you shrugged it off, of course he's a world champion, of course he has to train more and focus on his work, but aren't you atleast a little priority aswell?
As you got more and more lost in your thoughts, the front door opened, revealing an exhausted Lando. He dropped all of his stuff on the floor as he let out a big sigh, taking his shoes off. After a few minutes that felt like forever he finally looked at you, furrowing his eyebrows. You were all dressed up, your heels tossed on the floor, and all of your favorite jewelries shining on your skin, which meant one thing: You were going on a date. Atleast you were supposed to.
"Well hello" you finally spoke, breaking the silence. You watched as the realization slowly hit his eyes, his expression changing for a second then going back to neutral.
"Fuck, I'm sorry, I lost track of time-"
"And you didn't check your phone?" you interrupted him, your voice changing from neutral to annoyed.
You watched as he took his phone out and turned it on, the loud message notifications appearing repeatedly on his screen. You sent him a bunch of messages hours before, asking him where he was, and finally if he atleast cancelled the table he booked.
"You know what, nevermind" you said as you stood up, going into your shared bedroom. He was standing there confused, and you expected him to go after you, to apologize, but he didn't. He continued his night routine as usual, not even acknowledging the fact that he completely stood you up. You quickly washed your makeup off and did your skincare, getting into bed before him and turning to the side. At this point you still had a tiny bit of hope that he will apologize, he will tell you that he's sorry, but as he got into bed he just turned into the other side, quickly falling asleep from the tiring day he had. And that's when you realized that this isn't what you want.
This wasn't the first time that he forgot about a date, or you in general. All those times he insisted you to go to the paddock just for him to be gone for the whole day, all those times he promised he will take you out somewhere just to say that he is tired, even going as far as to cancel a trip with your family just to go out with his friends instead cause he "didn't see them in a while", leaving you to go alone. You were never mad when he went out with his friends, it was the opposite actually, but when you hadn't spent quality time in months you expected him to prioritize you and go with you instead.
As you heard his quiet breathing behind you, you couldn't help but let out a faint sob. This didn't feel like a relationship anymore, it basically felt like you two were just roommates. He got comfortable in the relationship and knew that you wouldn't leave him, atleast that's what he thought, but you were going to prove him wrong. You closed your eyes but you couldn't sleep, your thoughts running constantly, not knowing what to do next.
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The morning sun shined through the curtains, lighting up the dark room and waking you up. You expected to feel an empty bed behind you but to your surprise Lando was still behind you, sleeping peacefully. And maybe it wasn't the right thing to do, but you felt like he needed a wake up call. You quietly got ready, packed some of your stuff and quickly grabbed a piece of paper and a pen, writing a note and leaving it on the counter.
Lando woke up to the thud of the front door, frowning at the bright light coming from the window. As he looked over he was even more confused about seeing your side of the bed empty, quickly getting up.
"Babe?" he called, but it was dead silent. There wasn't a sing of you anywhere, no matter how much he paced around the cold apartment. As he arrived in the kitchen he saw a small piece of paper on the counter, walking towards it and picking it up.
"Lando, I'm tired of feeling like a burden, and let's be honest, that's what I am to you now. This is not just about yesterday's date, it's about the fact that you haven't acknowledged my presence at all in the past few days and we hadn't spent quality time in months. This doesn't feel like a relationship to me, and this is certainly not what you want right now, so I'm going back to my parents house. I need some time away to think about things, please don't contact me until then, I'll be back when I'm ready to talk. Be safe"
"What the fuck" was the first thing that left his lips as he read the note. The first thing he did was pull out his phone to call you, how did you even expect him to not contact you in a situation like this? As he tapped your number on the screen it went straight to voicemail, same with the numerous texts he sent that never ended up being delivered. He ran a shaky hand through his hair and thought about picking up his car keys and just going after you, but he knew if he did that you would probably end things right there, and he didn't want that. So, he waited.
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Two weeks passed by, and to you, it was quite comforting. You finally weren't left alone in an apartment for most of the day, and you could properly focus on your work without your thoughts wandering off somewhere else.
To Lando, it was hell. There wasn't a day he didn't think about you, and these two weeks were exactly what he needed to realize just how much you actually meant to him. All those nights he went back to the apartment, just to lay in the bed alone and think about all those times he left you disappointed. You were right, he did get comfortable. He was used to going back home to you no matter how many useless excuses he made, the cold hard truth finally slapping his face. It was race week in a few days, he couldn't get distracted. But he also couldn't bear the thought of you not being there. Even if he didn't pay much attention to you sometimes, the fact that you were there comforted him. But what's going to happen now?
You already had the tickets and passes to Hungary, and you thought of giving them to someone else, but you felt like you were ready to finally see him now, so you ended up going there afterall. You didn't want to distract him, but at the same time you still wanted to be there for him. So, you got ready, packed your suitcase and booked a room for a seperate hotel, going over all the possibilities of how to go there without you being noticed by anyone.
The most logical solution was only going for the race day, so although you arrived in Budapest on friday, you stayed in your hotel and watched the race from the TV. Surprisingly Lando got pole, but you didn't know that you were more happy about it than he was. Although he was supposed to celebrate, he couldn't help but scan his eyes around the paddock, looking for any sign of you being there. He even approached a random girl that looked like you from behind, just to end up apologizing when realizing it was someone else.
The race day arrived, the sun lighting up the racetrack across Budapest with Lando's car already positioned up from the front of the grid. You arrived in the paddock an hour before the race started, when you knew there are already preparations so you won't see him. You sat in the McLaren hospitality, with the engineers and team members greeting you, asking where you were yesterday. You made up a quick excuse, something about busy days, and quickly went upstairs to sit in the room to watch from the big screen.
As the race intensified it didn't shake Lando up at all, and he ended up winning the grand prix. You were really proud of him, and although you wanted to stay lowkey, some team members went up to you and encouraged you to watch the ceremony from the stands. You went downstairs, but what you didn't expect was the fact that all of them pushed you forward, so you were standing in the front row for the whole ceremony.
As Lando received the trophy and held it in the air, he looked down at his team members, then his heart skipped the beat. There were a bunch of engineers and team staff around, but he could notice you anywhere, no matter how big the crowd was. You smiled at him and clapped, not hiding the fact that you were extremely proud of him. His expression softened, and he stood still, not taking his eyes off you, the sweet moment interrupted by the loads of champagne poured down his face and neck.
As the celebrations and media duties went down he rushed across the paddock, looking for you. He ran to the garage, asking everyone where you were, afraid like he won't see you again. You were on your phone back in the hospitality scrolling on social media, when you heard the door open.
Lando stood there completely frozen, not knowing what to do. Should he hug you? Kiss you? Do you want to break up with him right now?
You were just staring at each other for a bit until he finally slowly approached you, pulling you in a tight hug, like you were going to disappear infront of him anytime soon. You hugged him back, not caring about the fact that he was still sticky from the champagne.
"I'm so fucking sorry Y/N" was the first sentence that left his lips, still not breaking free from the hug.
"I'm so so sorry. I took your love for granted and I'll never forgive myself for that" he continued, the words taking him way too much effort considering that he just ran across the entire paddock. "I love you more than anything else and these past few weeks were hell, I never want to lose you again, I'll do anything to make us work again"
As he said those words you pulled away from the hug, cupping his face between your cheeks, wiping down a single tear that fell from his eyes.
"Lando-"
"I promise I'll make up all those dates, and it will never happen again, I really want to make you happy. I always wanted to make you happy, I really hope you never doubted that, I just got way too carried away knowing you always forgave me for all the times I messed up. I know I don't deserve it but-"
"I forgive you Lando" you cut him off. Seeing him so worried, you couldn't help but feel bad for him, and you felt the sincerity in his words. "But if this happens again-"
"It won't" he didn't let you finish. "It really won't Y/N. I was so fucking scared you never want to see me again, I never want to feel like that ever again"
"You promise?"
"I promise."
And after three whole weeks, you finally kissed him. Winning a race didn't even come close to the feeling of your lips finally touching his, as he completely melted under your touch. You both knew he still had a lot of things to prove, but in this moment, this is all that mattered. ───────────────────













