I Grohl my soul for rock and roll!
I may not be able to enjoy flow yet but I still enjoy the analytical side of music. Particularly with friends. My friend and I synchronized notebooks, learned the Pentatonic minor scale, and figured out what songs we are going to be practicing: Big Me by Foo Fighters, Come As You Are by Nirvana, Blister in the Sun by The Violent Femmes, and Head Over Feet by Alanis Morrisette.
They are all great songs by talented musicians, unfortunately the indoctrination programming has its say too. So I am going to talk about that for a moment.
Secular or worldly music is a lump genre that includes everything, not Christian. My mom would go through my cd’s and tapes to destroy anything not Christian so I couldn’t let the devil into the house. I started getting friends to burn me cd’s. So Steven Curtis Chapmen was hiding Eminem, Joel Ingle hid Kid Rock, and my collection of contraband began to grow.
At 14 I did it to chase the buzz of doing things I wasn’t supposed to do. Honestly, I was suicidal, 3 attempts by 17 (not that anyone noticed) I was trying to die, so what did I care if a bunch of devil worshipers sacrificed me to the devil who seemed to be prevalent in my life anyway.
The last propaganda film my mom tried to get me to watch was, “They Sold Their Souls for Rock and Roll”. I did NOT watch that one since I wasn’t living at home anymore. It set on a shelf for years before I had the balls to throw it away. Recently, I realized that Ozzy has an album called “We Sold Our Souls for Rock and Roll”. I sat stunned at the appalling hypocrisy, my dad, plays “Crazytrain” and “Ironman” on guitar. All these years of allowing mom to control my media, place triggers against music. And I find out you fucking listen to those that you tried to scare me away from. Fuck you and your GOD DAMNED TRIGGERS! I will continue to face and learn about what scares the shit out of me.
Music can’t buy my soul because it isn’t for sale.
Guess what else can’t buy my soul…Blood.
Take care of yourself, because you *ARE* worth it!!! *hugs*