Hi, is it okay to ask for a free reading? I’m C, she/her. I'd like to know if there's any chance that I could ever talk again with a friend that I stopped talking with many years ago (we were part of a friend group and things got messy). We were very close, I was going through a lot during the time we were friends, and even if all of us had part of fault in what happened, when I think about them I still miss them and I wish I could talk to them again even if just once, to apologise again. Especially to the friend I was closest with. I know they probably know that I'm sorry for my part in it, because I tried to fix things then, but even now nearly a decade later I still feel a lot of sadness and regret over the way everything unfolded, and the hobbies we shared remind me of them and are painful to think about or to engage with, so I avoid them. I should probably add that we were three Scorpios, in my case I'm Sag moon and rising. I reread some of our old conversations today too and I felt that I didn't deserve them. Compared to now, I feel I was so immature at the time and so easily triggered because of all the things I was going through, and sometimes I wish they hadn't met me then, because it was the worst year of my life and they met the worst version of me. If you rather not answer this, it's okay. Thank you for reading this, hope this message finds you well and that you have a good day / night
Spread: 3 Card Relationship Deck: Mystic Faerie
What You Want- Seven of Cups While the classic interpretation for this card is many choices and wishful thinking, the fae in this version is thinking about the choices between reconnecting with someone from her past or not. You're at the wishful thinking stage and have been for a long time. You want to talk to your old friend but are unsure if you should go through with it.
What They Want- Three of Cups Honestly, this is one of the better cards to receive when asking about reconciliation. The Three of Cups is about friendship, joy, and celebration. I feel they'll very much appreciate you reaching out and apologizing-they may even want to keep the connection open and reconnect after.
Advice- Two of Swords You need to get over this indecision causing you to keep staying in this cycle of regret. You have a choice to make; you either reach out or you don't, but you need to make a final decision and stop ruminating.
Based on what the cards say for your friend, I feel it won't hurt to reach out to them. If nothing else it'll be a relief to get what you want to say off your chest. While the cards are positive, the choice to go through with it or not is ultimately up to you.
I know how it feels to be tormented by your past mistakes C, but beating yourself up for years does your old friends and yourself no favors. Every day we're all striving to do better than we did the last. I hope you end up reaching out and it goes well for you!!
