One Last Fight
4 hours ago i gave up, on the project and everything, it felt so futile and making the same mistakes seems inevitable, more piles of blogging stacked and soon to be obsolete, but now for some reason, im working on the project again.
Despite that this project will turn out mediocre at best, if it even gets turn out at all, it looks like im going to see it through.
I have a million and one compelling reasons to do it well and to pass but that looks inconceivable now due of report grades with tones of evidence that it wont matter and that its a just a stupid hole i dug myself but im still here so..
If anything id like to serve as a bad example, do what i mostly didn't do, if you have a consistent problem, attack it head on, don't really try to work a way around it, or even explore that much. Face it straight up, with nothing that could be placed as a distraction or shortcut, and face it everyday.
So much to say but if i only pile this post out, i want the last few things to say on my blog to go along the lines of something like: reflection is weak, action is awesome. Also live alive for the project to be also, even if it means drastic emotion.
And contrary to popular belief ive never actually done any drugs in my life for gods sake people.