#fallahan.isms

[voiceofduality]

// today I've been thinking of how fallahan can be a genuinely likeable person, who's fun and witty, charismatic, attentive and fiercely protective of his loved ones, but instead he's adopted an exaggerated and manipulative version of himself as his persona, and avoids tenderness and intimacy because he knows his true self tends to slip out in comfortable company, and it would crush him to admit he's done all this not to admit that he's vulnerable and scared of not fitting in and being forever alone and irrelevant

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// when I say Fallahan likes tragedies, this is what I mean. This is the kind of song he'd write.

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// I was listening to Disney music while cleaning and I thought for a second if Belle belongs in Fal's playlist, following yesterday's post. But then I realized Fallahan would DEFINITELY marry Gaston because he is, indeed, the prettiest man in town and he would do anything in his power to piss the haters off. Also Gaston is the textbook example of Fal's idea of a perfect man, which is handsome, intimidating, wealthy and dumb as a brick. If you give Fal the chance to seduce a Gaston, he will TAKE IT, no questions asked, and I hate him for it.

[voiceofduality]

// fal would look STUNNING in a ponytail but he hardly ever wears his hair up

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// Regarding Fallahan's memory, today is a good day to unpack how a large part of Fallahan's detachment issues comes from seeing both his parental figures (a human, and an elf) die from old age. He's young for an elf, but he is terrified of transience. He knows everything, including life, eventually comes to an end, and he would rather not be there to see it.

[voiceofduality]

who are you

yelling. You're screaming for help as loudly as you can, as much as you bear. You're not direct in your attempts, that just hurts too much. But as much as you feel like you're reaching out your hand, looking for somebody, just anybody who can hold you, the loneliness of the world gets to you more than you want to admit. You're not quiet about your suffering, not anymore. You need understanding but you are used to extremes. Passion, anger, pure unfiltered emotions have always come very easily to you.

searching. You want to find something, you need to find something. Maybe it's a person, maybe it's a meaning, most likely it's a feeling. You want to feel at peace, satisfied. You want to stop looking, or rather, you want to not want to look. Sooner or later you always realize whatever you're looking for doesn't exist, not really. But that just makes you search even harder.

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[voiceofduality]

what  is  your  hate  language  ?  

Stealing

You ever had your car or apartment broken into and your most valuable or loved possessions just taken away from you? Let’s be honest, most people steal because they simply need to to survive, maybe some out of greed, but you do it out of pure malice. You take the last of your roommate’s ice cream, you steal your siblings favorite stuffed animal, you steal your classmate’s pencil box, if you steal money from someone you genuinely think that person deserved it. Your crimes can range from shoplifting to grand theft, and you fucking hate billionaires. The best things to steal aren’t money though, it’s things that people love or can’t live without. Many don’t know of this hate language, but if you’ve ever had the impulse to steal your enemy’s last soda, you now know why.

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[voiceofduality]

// periodical reminder that fallahan has a playlist I'm particularly proud of