I CRY CRY CRY CRY OH GOD MY HEART I CRYYYYYY
I'M FUCKING DEVASTATED
I was sososo so sad at the beginning because reading the webcomic it felt like even though Cheongmyeong was ocasionally having fun at the present, he couldn't help but miss the past and nothing was the same, it was really depressing and I keep wishing someone else got revived, like Tang Bo or his sahyung, idk, a friend, someone that could be family or a peer because none of the children could be that
However in the novel is possible to appreciate that he's having totally new experiences now, he misses the past, yes, but it isn't like he was only happy there and now that's forever out of reach. The present is new, fun and fulfilling, with new goals and things to achieve, with different people that he's forced to look at and for
Idk it feels soooo sad that he wasn't be capable of apreciating the people around him in his first life, he was always too much, too fast, too capable and, for that, insolated. Alien. In this life, Mount Hua is frantic, voracious, eager to take from him everything he has and more- and that's exactly what he needs, to be taken apart in his abilities, in his knowledge, desires, impulses, intentions and senses. Without him knowing he's being deconstructed and remade, all his pieces still there but in a slightly different order for the children to see and reach
He doesn't have peers yet, nevermind an equal, but something like friends and family keeps nipping at his ankles and that's the closest the entire sect has been to him since he started running ahead
I don't even know if all of this is coherent, help, i just love him soooo fucking much and my heart is filled when he has these miraculous first times appreciating life and makes me want to live
