Random thought I had and dragged a couple friends down the rabbit hole:
Being chunk banned is like being voided, except nothing happens. Youâre stuck in a cold, black void. Youâre body canât handle being there, so the ban destroys your body for the time being, making your consciousness the only thing that exists until you get out.
Time works differently in the void or it feels different. Seconds feels like minutes, minutes like hours, hours equals days, days become months, so on and so forth. You lose all sense of time and purpose as soon as your in, doomed to wait until you get saved from this nightmare.
How you perceive the world also becomes a huge difference. You have become so used to the cold nothingness that numbs you, the silence that was so ear shattering has disappeared and your back in a world with loud sounds, people, colors, shapes and temperatures, worst of all you canât ignore it and you can do nothing to numb the pain.
When you get out of it, youâre stuck in a body that doesnât feel like yours anymore. Maybe your body got destroyed and remade when you got back, maybe youâve grown too used to the void, to not have a body and now nothing feels right anymore
After coming back everything is wrong, youâre body isnât working like it used to and itâs constantly shutting down on you. You forget to breathe, eat, sleep and everything that makes you you. Itâs much weaker than what you used to be after all the time youâve spent away from it. You have to care for needs you donât remember having or needing and you feel like youâve lost all sense of your humanity. (or whatever species they are)
Both your mind and body freaks out, your legs canât carry your full weight anymore, working like a newborn horse. Your hands canât hold onto things for long before your grip gives in. You canât fully process barely do anything without shaking like a leaf because of the exhaustion and overstimulation.
Your body is actively fighting you, rejecting your presence, trying to kick you out, because you are not the one who used to inhabit it, at least not anymore.
You donât remember how time works anymore, youâre sense has become so skewed that you work for hours on end, without any breaks because those hours of hard work has been nothing but a couple of minutes in your mind. They have no way of actually adjusting back because how do understand the way time works again when you have lived so long without it being a thing.
You have to deal with migraines every single day, a nausea that wonât leave, you canât fully process whatâs happening around you, more times than not youâre dissociating trying to get away from it all. No matter how much you hide in dark rooms, run away to the end, but nothing fixes your problems.
You need the darkness, the cold feeling that hurts, a silence that can never be reciprocated. You need the void, to be chunk banned again, your practically going insane with how much you need to return, because you canât survive like this. You canât live like this.
