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[innstudiesagain]

I know I might sound like a loser while writing these posts. But gathering my emotions and making myself understand how it’s bad for me to reach out to someone who doesn’t want my presence in his life. I always took pride in this feeling that I am not someone who will chase anyone in this life. But when it came to him, I was helpless. 

it was a battle I was fighting within me. No one knew and I didn’t want to tell anyone. But the thought of you being away from me killed me. It made me want to just wipe out my existence from this world. I know that there were other relationships that valued me. I know that I was needed by other people, but for me only you existed.

[innstudiesagain]

His words echo in my ears out of nowhere “you need help” , “what if I die and you’ll have no one to call then”

“Why do you need me? Don’t call me”

Day in and day out. I couldn’t help myself from dialling his number, from calling him. I couldn’t stop myself even tho I knew the consequences. I know it will hurt me. I know it will make me crazy. I knew that it would ultimately result in something even worse whenever I called him. I kept on wishing for a different result each time I reached out I kept on wishing that he would be gentle patient. He would try to understand my circumstances. He would try to understand how I feel. I kept on wishing. It was brutal. What I was doing to myself, but like I said, I couldn’t stop. It was like I knew him only in this world and no one else it was like he was there with me no one else. It was like I couldn’t even go to someone else even if I wished. No matter what I wanted to do no matter what I thought. I still ended up calling him. I still ended up wanting him. I still ended up trying to reach him. Every day I had to remind myself on waking up do not do that. Do not contact him not today not today.  if he doesn’t want your presence , why would you need such a person?

[innstudiesagain]

When he said 'hello,' there was a hint of excitement. But when he knew it was me, there was disgust. The excitement was cut short, and suddenly, I was asked, 'What happened?' I called after one and a half months, but his voice was telling me that he didn't need me. Even after eternity, he wouldn't need me. Why is it so hard to understand what he keeps hinting? The subtle way he shows me that I'm not needed. I have understood, but I can't shake off the feeling sometimes.

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