bittersweet
so bitter
and so haunting
it dawns on me
how I hide
how I lied
it rains on me
from the sky
lack of light
confusing pride
bittersweet
so sweet
a thing laughing..
or a laughing thing?
it teases me
how I would fly
how sweet, not shy
it beams on me
exotic mind
girl in prime
bittersweet
aggressively lively
not so timely
balloon eyes
it seems I saw me
gaze stares finely
gone here to there
and there to here
now no longer longing
no longer hungry
no longer thinking
it falls on me
how I cried
how I tried
lost in luxury
trapped in time
heads or tails?
flip a dime
bittersweet
and it’s flaunting
in my eyes
in her cries
rightful indictment?
or today’s excitement?
tomorrow’s losing
yesterday’s drinking
no more boozing
timeless sinking
today’s loss
tomorrow’s thoughts
I’ll come across
filled with rage
and sugar highs
with such grace
time to realize.
turn a new page
“rest in paradise”
bittersweet
here she dies
how she lies
an excited face
forever prized.