#fatalbrunet

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random flirty text messages that bestfriend!hollis sends

cw : sexual texts!

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trigger warning * talking about suicide. - please read at your own caution

its been a week since the incident. brent coming overs ruined me. i feel ruined. broken. my apartment which was supposed to be my safe space was ripped away from me. now every time i close my eyes i remember how i felt hopeless. zoning out, staring at the wall i was posted up against, beat bloody and blue i was suddenly distracted.

a loud knock on my door threw me back into reality. before i'd been able to walk towards the door, knowing it was my friends or one of my amazon deliverys but now i'm forced to live with the thought that it might be him waiting to get his revenge. i walk towards the door with jelly like legs, wondering if i should just hide in my bed and have a full blown mental breakdown. deciding against that i try to shake off the fear but that just makes it worse.

i stop in my tracks thinking it must be brent. my breathing getting unsteady and the person behind the door getting even more inpatient. i run towards my bedroom locking myself in my room, hiding under the covers for some sense of security i hear a door open.

theres no way he got a key to my house. right?. i think shaking even more. i feel a tear roll down my cheek once again. shit he is right im a crybaby. i hear a soft knock against my bedroom door and i immediately start shaking getting flashbacks. i start crying whispering to myself "please i dont want this." i was crying at the thought of having a panic attack. how pathetic is that.

on the other side of the door i hear a voice. the same voice which guided me through panic attacks before. romans voice. "y/n? i'm here to check on you. let me in please." i wanted to. i wanted to let him in but i couldnt move. "roman?" i say my voice laced with fear and muffled sobs. "yeah its me, let me in i want to make sure your fine." he responds. "i cant open the door roman. i cant move" i finally let the sob out, knowing that he wouldnt get mad at me for crying. "are you hurt?" he questions i hear the worry in his voice even though the door. "n-no i dont know whats wrong with me roman. i cant fucking walk" i say with an unsteady voice. "are you far away from the door? i can break it down." "im going to get in trouble with my landlord roman. im on my bed." "fuck your landlord" he responds.

i feel my body shiver when he kicks the door down, running to my side taking the blanket off my body. "hey its fine, let it all out" he says giving me the biggest hug. my safe space. i let it all out, ruining my fresh lashes with tears ive been holding in for the longest time. "i cant live like this roman." i hiccup feeling the lump in my throat harden. "i just want to feel okay. i wan-" i pause not wanting to continue my sentence. i cant take roman through that i think to myself. "you want to what" he whispers into my ear not letting me go.

"i dont want to be alive roman." i hear his breathing become unsteady. i shouldnt of said that. i cant. i shouldnt. "don't say that y/n. please don't." he responds after a minute of silence. "i'm sorry." i whisper "don't say that, you have nothing to be sorry about. i stop crying, no longer feeling unsafe. roman has that aura. whenever he walks into a room that im in i feel safe, hes the closest thing to a brother that ive ever had and he sees me as his sister.

"come stay with me and hollis y/n. we both know you should be in this apartment alone." he says letting me go and looking me into my red puffy eyes. "i dont want to be a burd-" he interupts me before i can even finish my sentence. "i promise your not a burden y/n." i give him a soft smile fidgeting with my fingers i nod agreeing at his proposal. "pack a suitcase okay? you can stay with us until you feel better." he says standing up and walking out my room. "ill wait in the living room okay?" i give him a bigger smile. "mhm."

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" love has treated me so, so wrong >_< "

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thinkin' bout you : a 2hollis fanfic

when a broken girl meets a boy who wont let her down what happens. no matter how hard she pushes him away will he stay?

yearner!2hollis x hurting!y/n

1 , 2 , 3 , 4 , 5 , 6 , 7 , 8 , 9 , 10

status : ongoing

this masterlist will be added onto as i write

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trigger warning * - dv, horrible words - read at your own caution

moving in with roman and hollis has quite literally saved me, like not even in a dramatic way. scrolling on instagram on the sofa i'm suddenly disturbed by the same boy who saved me. "you know the galentines thing?"he casually mentions, i look up confused "uh huh" he continues "why dont we do it anyways, since everything happened i think you deserve to have fun with friends" i show hollis a big smile.

"yeah i agree but i dont have any decorations and you guys dont have stuff to bake with" i say changing my smile to a slight frown "girl dont worry about that, ill drive you around."

"wait really?" i say looking up at him from the sofa looking like a child in a candy store. "yeah of course, you deserve this for being so strong" he replys "ill go get dressed yeah?" he looks at me almost asking if im down with his eyes. i respond with a huge smile "okay! ill be a while though i still havent unpacked", "take your time".

i wasnt used to this, you know guys being sweet not expecting something in return. i felt happy for the first time in a while, i ran to the spare bedroom ive been sleeping in. the way both roman and hollis have made me feel at home was insane. i could actually sleep for the first time. sleep without the fear of being hurt.

i swiftly put on my pink babydoll shirt and some jeans, deciding against some sort of dress. i mean we're going shopping not to some fancy place. putting on some slight makeup i quickly rush out my room not forgetting my vape, digital camera and lip liner, the essentials.

i walk into the living room where hollis is sprawled out on the sofa "oh the was quick" i give a nervous laugh and say "yeah i didnt want to keep you waiting" for some reason i can't look into his eyes when im saying that. and thats when it hits me, i've completely changed myself, a few years ago i would of took hours to get ready but brent took that out of me.

* flashback *

"give me a second baby, ill be ready!" i yell from my vanity, brent was taking me out for my birthday dinner, happiness travelled through my body making me almost shake. oh how i love my boyfriend. i hear footsteps coming towards my bedroom, loud footsteps "you okay sweet?" i say loud enough for him to hear me, he walks into my room almost looking red "no im not fucking alright, you want to take hours to get ready. i know how it is with girls like you, you pretty yourselves up to get eyes from other fucking guys." he grabs my cheeks and i squeal, he hasnt lashed out like this before, what the fucks going on. "im taking time out of MY day to take you out and you want to fucking cheat on me? huh y/n?" he comes closer to my face almost letting them meet "fuckin slut." he mutters slapping me with a harsh hand. after that incident i never took more than 10 minutes to get ready.

"y/n?" i hear a faint voice. "y/n are you alright?" i feel a soft hand on my hand pushing me back into reality. "oh yeah, sorry i zoned out" i muttered "don't be sorry, i get it" he pauses for a second trying to look me in the eyes while mine looked towards the floor. "i mean i dont get it but your going through alot, dont be sorry" i show him a small smile. "erm we can get going now? if you still want to of course" i say finally giving him eyecontact, he responds "yeah of course."

5 mins later

"do you wan-" "how was t-" he smiles at me showing off that devilish smile "go on" "how was tour" i say fidgiting with the hem of my shirt. "shit it was amazing, i cant believe the amount of people who came out for us. i feel so blessed" i smile at the way hes so happy to talk about his experience. "aw thats sweet, what were you going to ask?" he seems nervous to ask the question but proceeds anyways. "you dont need to but i was asking if you wanted to talk about what happened that day."

do i let hollis in.

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i watch hollis roll his eyes and place my phone into his pocket. "hey my phone?" i look at him eyebrows furrowing. "i have an idea" i look at him with questioning eyes signaling him to continue "i'll give you my phone, so we both wont be on our phones today and ill take you somewhere special." with one hand on the wheel he takes his phone out of his pocket putting it on my lap. it doesnt take a lot to convince me "whatever, where do you wanna go?" "i dont know if i should tell you" he looks at me giving a cheeky smile. "please! i wanna know" i plead. "i'll give you a hint" he says eyes still on the road, "its something we talked about while shopping."

my eyebrows furrow once again trying to recap everything we've talked about. suddenly my brain finds it "oh my gosh oh my gosh!!! are we going to the studio" i squeal looking at him with pure excitement in my eyes "your gonna sing"

at the studio >_<

"i think your one of my favorite friends now hollis" i say while looking around the blacked out studio "this is where the magic happens" he looks at me with a serious face "cringe." i giggle.

"you've ever written anything?" i place my bag down on a chair and turn around to face him. "a bunch, writing is my strong suite, i just dont know how to actually do the whole singing thing its really overwhelming" i ramble on "but like as i said i'd love to sing im just scared you know?" hollis looks at me like he wants me to continue but i stop awkwardly staring at him waiting for him to respond.

"i'll help you every step of the way. i promise" i look him in the eyes for the first time ever "you will?" "i will." "you know any of the songs off the top of your head?" i knod and step behind the booth stepping up to the microphone

"you seem to replace your brain with your heart,

you take things so hard then you fall apart,

you try to explain, but before you can start

those crybaby tears come out of the dark."

thirteen songs later ヾ(＠⌒ー⌒＠)ノ

"holy shit." hollis mutters with a taco bell churro in his mouth "i feel like i was in a trance. your lyrics, your voice fucking hell." flustered i respond "thank you" i look up at the clock outside the booth 2:42 AM "no way we've been here for that long." "how rude of roman to not call us is he not worried about us?" i yawn before laughing at his sarcasm "im so tired can we go?" i walk towards where he's sitting to grab my bag

"oh i almost forgot, my phone please!" i put my hand out waiting for him to give me back my phone. "i can't do that" i look at him eyes widening out of confusion "are you stealing my phone?" i start fidgeting with my hands frustrated at the situation "i don't like this hollis please i want my phone back." my chest starts hurting and i feel my eyes tearing up

im not crying. im not crying. i repeat to myself internally. i remember what brent called me. a crybaby. "hollis." i look up at him with glossy eyes just to be met with him shaking his head "listen i can't." he sighs "i was told that i cant please listen to me." i feel a tear make its way down my cheek. this is the second time i've cried today, i think im reaching a record fucking hell.

"take me home please." i look down at the floor and walk towards the exit pouting. why on earth am i not allowed my phone. hes treating me like a literal child, i think to myself. i open the car door sitting down trying to face away from hollis so he doesnt see my eyes welling up with tears again.

"y/n i-" i cut him off "im sorry but i dont want to speak to you" i'll be honest i didnt think i had that in me. the brutality i'd be lying if i didnt say i felt bad. sticking by my words i look out the window as he drives taking in the view.

after the strangest car journey ive ever had i layed down in my bed not bothering to wash the makeup that remained on my face. i notice my ipad on my vanity vibrating. walking towards it i brace myself for whatever it could be.

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i feel my breathing getting unsteady, i scroll down to check the replies

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i put on her playlist skipping past songs until i found a song fitting the moment, princess bubblegum, smiling at the intro of the song i decide to start decorating the apartment, yeah the apartment was small but it was mine and thats all that matters.

after a long two hours of baking and decorating and a bunch of cocktails i smile at the apartment, feeling proud in the work i've done, fucking hell, im an artist. a literal artist. i think looking around in awe oh my gosh i need to take a picture of this i think and i run into my bedroom, which i made sure not to miss while decorating,i scan my draws for my pink polaroid which roman got me for my birthday, should i just keep my bedroom like this i think looking around, i mean it is me, it just screams y/n i guess.

i carefully take photos making sure not to ruin anything before the function even starts. thats when i hear a loud knock at the door, "the doors open" i yell, knowing its roman and his friends

i walk towards my bedroom to put the polaroid back down, and quickly open instagram

2hollis has started following you

oh! okay that new i put my phone down on my vanity and quickly check my face, making sure my lashes arent falling off. i walk back into the living room "hi roman how was your flight over?" i say staring down at my nails. "roman? im not roman baby" thats when i feel it, the feeling of vomiting, crying, screaming and running all at the same time, i look up slowly bracing myself. it wasnt roman. "miss me?" he says with that heart ripping voice.

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