#fazyluny

[ruinaa-a-blog]

          & --- --- @fazyluny

          she doesn’t usually go to starbucks –– there isn’t one on her way, and this one definitely isn’t –– but she remembers it’s the one where amelia works and, while she doesn’t know her schedule, she hopes for the best. it’d probably be better for her to leave everything alone –– she doesn’t know her, after all, but there had been something in the way amelia had looked at josephine that had made her doubt that for a moment. like maybe they’d met once, or that amelia knew her, or of her, and maybe it’s a little bit of that old paranoia rising up, but she wonders. she can’t help it.

          this time, she gets lucky –– sees her behind the counter, at the register, and she doesn’t even know what she’s going to say. she doesn’t have anything planned.

          “oh, hi,” a smile, easy. “amelia, right?”

[ruinaa-a-blog]

          & --- --- @fazyluny

          she doesn’t need to do this. she knows that. shilah’s instincts are far sharper than her own but he’s not here now, is he? away again, out of town, and she’ll be damned if she gives anyone a chance to pry their way into his life, or his home, or his work. he’s done this for her plenty of times, even when he thought she didn’t know it –– she remembers roman telling her shilah was there even if he wasn’t in the apartment with them and she knew what that meant, always, that he was outside circling somewhere, waiting for a threat that likely wasn’t even there. but this, now –– it is. and she’s not going to let it grow into something more than it already is.

          roman thinks she’s at work, which is just as well; she feels the buzz of her phone against her hip and checks the message. when do you think you’ll be home? and she’s halfway through a response when she hears footsteps, pushing off from the alcove in shilah’s hallway to peer out.

          “–– what do you think you’re doing?”

[metuere-now-exspiritment]

MY QUESTION WAS SUPPOSED TO BE what is she most afraid of and why

ask me questions about my character!

Oh Dear God..i wish u had asked this for literally any other character. for example..burns is most afraid of the treasured holiday halloween, and unfortunately for spirit i cant just reverse the answer and say spirit is most afraid of the treasured holiday, Fun Government Approved Arson Appreciation Time

uhhh spirit is probably most afraid of intimacy, just looking back at her muse over time & how she’s reacted to situations. i mean this both emotionally and physically; she’s very uncomfortable with little things like hand holding or kissing, and also things with sexual context especially when it shouldnt be there…weird looks or touches, ect. she’s far more comfortable with violence because it’s like ‘oh i know what’s going to happen’ but she’s way more afraid of being hurt in ways she doesn’t understand, or of somebody getting close to her and fucking her over on a deeper level

[metuere-now-exspiritment]

@fazyluny​

“Do you know of any short-staffed local drug dealers. I’m very poor, and very morally ambiguous, and I find it difficult to be held accountable for things.” She pauses, chewing her lower lip in intense, genuine thought. “I should make a resume and put those things. Don’t you think.”

[overprepared]

‘  that  was  really  wild  stuff .  ’ from Elliot

michael’s breath escapes between his teeth. the resulting sound is a huff, something close to the right side of a barebones laugh; it’s a hollow noise, and michael’s shoulders sag with it. it’s a less dramatic rendition of the spirit leaving the body. no chest caving in, no panic, no meltdown, just michael existing in the spaces where nothing goes to plan and people look at him closer than he’d like. 

he doesn’t know elliot very well, but here’s something michael can ascertain on meeting most people: they don’t deserve the baggage that comes with michael scofield. and they near invariably get tangled up in it anyway.

‘ i’m sorry you had to get involved. ’

the haunting of hill house / accepting / @fazyluny.

[metuere-now-exspiritment]

in other words, fuck everybody else. /from andrew

he forgot to say goodbye starters // accepting

“You know, you’re much more likable this way. So cynical and jaded. So hateful. How edgy. How cool. I’m barely even being sarcastic, you know. It’s fun.”

[metuere-now-exspiritment]

does anyone have a normal family? /from Maria

he forgot to say goodbye starters // accepting

“Oh, my family--my family’s awesome. It’s great. Forget everything that I just said. We’ll send you a-a fucking Christmas card.”

“What about yours. Do you have an abomination of a mom or just more dogs.”

[soulmissed]

‘ i’d like to see you when all of these angry days flow away. ’ 

❪ @fazyluny, sc ❫