Rejecting yandere because you like how desperate and depraved it makes him <3
You love to see the breaking point. It always shows you one of two things: 1. They are volatile and not in a good way 2. He is actually down bad for you and willing to cross any line and be anyone as long as he can be with you.
You like the idea of him going crazy. You imagine him in his home hands fisted over his face, his mind running circles trying to figure out how to catch up with you and be what you want- what you need him to be.
You actually kind of have feelings for him. He’s handsome and well endowed but the last layer of inhibitions he has is a turn of and you want to see how high you can turn up his desperation.
Rejecting him is a blancher you just want to see what happens when you finally crack the outer walls. When he pushes the boundaries and creeps past general comfort.
It turns you on like no other. To see a man so desperate so anxious and frenzied to have you makes your groin swell in a way like nothing else.
It’s weird how much control you live to have but to see a man so desperate to take it away turns you on. It’s not like your submitting you just want to see him go crazy. Girls just want to have fun after all.
So what if he’s a mirderous villain that would do a hunting to have you? That’s the point. You want to see him beg and grovel then flip a switch and assert himself into your life. It’s not like he’s some intel creep from Nebraska. You want him, you just want to see him lose it for you first.
It’s so easy to have a guy like you, but to have him come back more devoted every time his pride and his ego are broken? Now that’s a delicacy. He doesn’t even want his old ego, if that’s what was keeping you away from him then he will banish it, destroy it, rebuke it.
Being the constant chase is like a muscle stretching after a good workout. It burns but it’s bliss. You are a constant mental and physical exercise. He has to show up and put in the reps every day. Even when he doesn’t see result or minimal ones at best.
Your rejection is like voltage to the brain, it makes him more willing and compliant and brain dead as the days go on, but the end of your little game you’ll truly have a devoted submissive creature. A manslave if you will.