dating kisa would include:
soft kisses, almost uncertain at times. she's careful with you sometimes in a way you'd honestly not expected of her. sure, sometimes she's all passion and sharp teeth but occasionally she touches you, looks at you...like she's the one staring at the sun.
she gets into moods where she is super careful with you, touching you so softly and holding you with such care. she tries to be soft with you often, gentle when she can be. it doesn't come easy for her, but you help make it better. she never wants to cause you pain or suffering. your relationship is a comfort to her and she truly wants to keep it that way.
you are each other's safety net. ride or die, for sure. she would NEVER let anything in this world hurt you and god help the motherfucker that would ever try. and while you may not be able to protect her physically the way she can you, for her you are where she feels the safest emotionally and mentally. she can say or feel anything with you, share any secrets, express any emotion. there's nothing she feels like she had to hide from you, and it is such a relief.
and in the same vein, you could tell this woman you killed a man and she's only going to shrug and ask if you need help hiding the body. there is nothing you could tell her that would change how she feels about you. you feel insecure? you're the most beautiful thing in the world in her eyes. you hate your boss? she'll eat him. you feel like robbing a bank? she's already got the getaway bike. nothing will shock her, none of your deepest darkest secrets could shake her love for you. if you a good to her, if you love her, she's with you until the end.
for every fancy restaurant and $500 bottle of wine you two enjoy there are night spent cuddled together in bed watching campy old movies. for every culebra fight or biker asshole getting handsy, there is quiet giggles and lingering soft touches. her whole life, it seems has been full of blood and of violence. it never truly leaves her, she can never truly escape. but she does try her best to enjoy the small comforts being with you has brought her. it's all she wants, really. the comfort, the peace, the vulnerability.
she also wants to travel. after being trapped for so long she's itching to see all that she can see. she wants to spread her wings, sometimes even literally. she is 100% down for you to point on a map and the two of you pack up and head out to explore. she wants to hold your hand while hiking a mountain, ice skate on a frozen lake while trying to keep you upright and in her arms, dance under the moonlight in a forest while you play some silly love song on your phone.
but kisa struggles with her responsibility to her people. taking that on wasn't something she wanted to face, but she can't quite say no anymore. she is a leader, and despite her own perception she is actually quite good at it. culebras follow her, and though she isn't exactly comfortable still being their diosa, their queen, she can't leave them with nothing and no future left in sight.
she'll need a helping hand, someone to settle her when the responsibility starts to feel like a collar and not just a job. take her hands in yours, kiss her gently, give her a moment to just breathe. you balance her, focus her. she can never truly express what that means to her, how easy it is for you to quiet the voices in her head.
she may close herself off a times, seem cold and distant. sometimes she just needs a moment to herself when the memories feel too heavy for her. at the beginning of your relationship this is a little hard to deal with, but you come to learn that she will always find her way back to you. she just needs to stew in her own anger, her own guilt and fear. give her time, and soon she'll be curling up next to you and whispering what's been going through her head.
if you'd like to be turned, she kind of has a tough time with it at first. at the end of the day she will never control any part of your life, never be the one to tell you what to do. but this wasn't the life she wanted, she was never given the choice. and if she had been? she'd bet her life she would've chosen anything in this world but to become the monster she is today. and you? the one person she loves most in this cruel world? the idea of dragging you so deeply into her world is a double edged sword.
to be with you forever would be perfect. but to damn you to a life of blood and cruelty? she isn't sure she could be the one to do it. if you asked her to turn you, and it was important to you that it was her that actually did it? it would take some time, but she wouldn't deny you if that was what you really wanted. but she'd honestly prefer to make someone like richie or carlos do it for you.
speaking of carlos, good luck. she almost wants you to meet him, in a way. he is a big piece of her. but he's also a big piece of shit, so she always make sure that he is NEVER alone with you.
richie on the other hand she is more comfortable with. she knows that if richie says or does anything out of line with you his brother or kate with whack him upside the head. or if you are the type to put him in his place yourself? congrats, you have both gecko boys respecting the shit out of you and kate fuller becoming a fast friend. and kisa herself would be a little proud.
overall life with kisa is full of deep, passionate love. a love full of trust, comfort, and of healing maybe even for both of you. however bruised and battered or locked away her heart may seem, you'll come to see that it is all yours. forever. if you'll have her.
