I always come back to Embla from FEH. I love how emaciated she looks compared to other women in the series. She’s not anime skinny, she’s actually boney and weak. I love it because it’s what I see in the mirror, I guess.
A disgusting, weak, and frail body. I’ve gotten better, but this feeling persists and I think it always will. I see my ribs, my finger bones, hip bones, collar bones, and I feel disgusting. I want something to cover them, more skin or fat or something.
But it’s also ME. I guess I cope with it by imagining me as this impossibly tall creature that creaks and pops with every movement. Movements like a puppet on a string, no strength to anything. It’s something I’m pretty embarrassed about, how weak and frail I am.
But idk, I try not to think about it a lot. Still, it’s just so nice to see a character with a body that’s like mine and not have it be fetishized. It’s never brought up in a good light ever, that’s just how she looks. It’s just how I look.
