#february 10th 2012

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[nothingexceptwords]

Valentines Day~

Alright guise. This is a big topic to talk about here. Now I will admit, I’ve been saying things along the lines of, “Fuck Valentines Day. Who cares about Valentines Day? Valentines Day can rot in hell.” I will admit it. Yeah, I’ve been saying all these things, but I don’t really have anything against Valentines Day. Nothing. I mean, sure it’s a day that there are couples that appear from nowhere and act lovey dovey with each other. Sure, I want to punch couples in the fucking face, rip there teddy bear up, and crush or eat their chocolate. Sure… I want to do all of these things.

But I don’t have a serious problem against Valentines Day. It’s a nice day. And technically I do have a Valentines. Buuuuuut, it shall suck ass if Justyn doesn’t call me. Hey, whatever. Not getting my hopes up. Nope. Lolol

Happy up-coming Valentines Day guise~

[nothingexceptwords]

Guise, I have something to say~

Alright. This is going to be good.

So we all know that I tweeted that I have a really big secret that no one but myself know right? Okay. So I was just thinking that what if I told my secret what would happen?

Trippy as fuck right? Okay.

I really think that if I told my big, big secret no one would talk to me. Lololol, which is fine with me. I mean, ya know. Cause I supposedly don’t want friends anyway right?

I’m not saying any of this in a negative way. I’m actually content right now. Thank goodness for you guise right? Lolol, yeah.

I just have a strong feeling that people would be upset and want to not talk to me.

Mmmm. Can’t make that decision for other people, I’m not them. Lol

Chow~

[thealysworld]

The Maine - Don't Give Up On Us @ Divan Du Monde, Paris February 10th 2012

Sorry for the begining but John threw water on us, so it was not good for my camera x)

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The Maine - I Must Be Dreaming @ Divan Du Monde, Paris February 10th 2012 <3 

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The Maine - Color @ Divan Du Monde, Paris February 10th 2012 :D

[hearmedontbreakaway]

I can't sleep, so I guess I'll write. 

Today, I finally went to the doctors to address all the things that are medically wrong with me. I left the office with about $1,000 worth of blood work that I need to get done. -_-

Laura came over. We talked. We laughed. It was nice. Today, was the last time I was going to speak to her for a week. Seven days. 168 hours. That is how long it will be until the next time I speak to her. Letting her go was the hardest thing I had to do. But, I loved her enough to let her go. She needs to get better. I undertand why she's doing this. We need this, we need this to better ourselves. Our friendship is going to come back stronger than ever. I love her. She knows it. She loves me. I know it. 

I finally spent some alone time with Rachel today. It was much needed. I filled her in on the lesbian drama, since there's ALWAYS so much. She is happy that she moved to Winsted and is out of the drama. It was nice to catch up with her. I've missed her, terribly. It's hard not having her around, it's different. There's some severe seperation anxiety going on there. 

Smoked a few bowls with Laura and Rachel while rocking out to Kelly Clarkson for two hours. That was wonderful. Rachel knows every word to every song, just like Laura and I do. She never used to be a Kelly fan, now she is. So proud. :')

Went to Watertown High's girls basketball senior night with Brianna, Dani, and Lauren. Watched Jess play, high...winning. She did very well tonight. I'm so proud of her. I love her so much, she is such a great person. 

Amanda met me at the game tonight when she got out of work. It was nice to see her. Hugging her was something that I needed after the afternoon I had. I always feel better when she hugs me. She's my best friend; the truest friend anyone can ever have. Over the past week, Amanda has been craving Mario's Pizza, so at the game, she called and ordered Mario's. She literally got the biggest pizza that she could. Went back to her house, ate pizza, laid on her bed, started to fall asleep with her in my arms. It was perfect. She was content and happy. Even though she had a really bad headache, I'm happy that I was able to do something to make her feel a little better. She makes me happy. I like that. It's been hard to do lately. Amanda dropped me home, then she went home to bed because she has work at 7am tomorrow.

Went home and changed into oversized sweatpants and boxers. So. Comfy. 

Brianna texts me. She wants to smoke and go to Taco Bell. 

I put a newly washed hoodie. Greatest feeling.

Brianna picks me up. Lauren and Dani are with her.

We go kidnap Colleen. I love Colleen. She is so incredibly beautiful and such a genuine person. She deserves nothing but eternal happiness. She is honestly someone I want to get close with. I feel we are a lot alike and we could be great friends. 

We smoke and get Taco Bell. 

Along the way, we jam. I love jamming. Especially high and with good friends. 

I am not laying in my bed, in a tank top, and in said oversized sweatpants. I am Tumbling and having a heart-to-heart with Lauren. I am overly exhausted. I hope I sleep tonight, but that doesn't seem hopeful.

Today, overall, was a good day. I think that this "break" that Laur and I are doing is going to help our friendship tremendously. As long as she is happy at the end of this, I am happy.