im hurt to say the least. i thought he was different. i didn't think i was a joke to him. maybe i wasn't, maybe things just changed over time. i should've known to be quite honest. the more i reread the message the more i rethink about our last days together i may have only been trying to convince myself of the bright side. i don't know if it's heartbreak that i feel or if it's just my first time feeling this sad over a boy who's flaws i overlooked. i've made a playlist to describe how i feel. it's the stages of getting over him, but the more i listen the less i progress. it's not that i need to heal asap, but it's just never taken me more than three days much less a week to get over something. i have so many unanswered questions. what did i do wrong? when did u stop caring? why does it hurt so much? why can't the friendship remain? why did you have to block me? did my mere face upset you that much? i understand the logic of moving on but my head doesn't seem to.