I didn't tell you guys that I started singing with a virtual band (a very close friend of ours, who's in Bogotá, Colombia right now) a while back. We recorded one cover song which is now going out for mixing and mastering, and I guess they want me to do another song with them too ("they" is just my husband, who is very minimally involved, and his friend, who is like the band leader and plays just about everything).
I'm also supposed to be recording a couple of songs by myself right now that I worked on for a few months.
My voice has gotten a lot better every single month since I started with a new teacher in January. I sound very different. However I still regularly feel like I'm awful because I'm just not where I want to be yet. I think it's been kind of hard having so much focus on technique even though it's helped me a lot. So now I'm trying to maintain that while also focusing on performance again.
AND I didn't tell you guys that I started writing songs a month or two ago. I've been keeping up with more study of music theory, but to be honest I think my biggest strength is a songwriter is just that I have a good ear and I'm familiar with the huge range of types of music. I wrote a song in mixolydian before I learned that scale... My stuff doesn't suck...
And so my throat finally felt recovered like a couple few weeks ago. And then about a week ago one ear became kind of like clogged with fluid or something. It only hurts a little bit but it's pissing me off because I can't hear and it rattles when I sing high notes. Our friend who is an ENT came by and looked at it on Sunday and he said it's nothing serious so I will wait until I see my primary doc in a couple of weeks. It seems likely that I'm having some kind of fluid drainage problems on that side of my head. Apparently it's not unusual to suddenly have that at age 38. 🤷🏻♀️ This could be related to my c-spine being so crooked and unstable. Doesn't help that the osteopath who fixes me up has been on maternity leave for two months.
So in sum I am some combination of doing great and on the struggle bus (am I still allowed to use that term, as a disabled person?). My confidence is still a huge struggle, And I have not made any progress with performance anxiety. But I'm fully vaccinated now (well, I will be after I bake for 2 weeks) so I feel like that has to change soon (or blow up).