‘ here, take my jacket. ’ ( HAE )
FROM SOME ASK MEME | @fflamed
you hold the shiver that threatens to run down your spine. you’re always so spectacle to the cold, to the heat. and yet you bite the soft tissue of your cheek, shaking your head as a smile fashions on thin lips. your head already rests on the curve of his shoulder, as your mind spins while you both rest on a park bench. its not like you to drink so much that you’d have to be escorted home but its that season where melancholy so easily sinks into the depths of your bones.
“ it’s okay, this is enough. ”
it was more than they should risk as your fingers grazing his as your body dips into his side. and maybe its the alcohol that loosen your lips, maybe it’s the weather, but really the long suppressed sorrow was determined to find escape sooner or later.
“ how long can we do this, hae ? living in this in - between where we hide both our happiness and pain ? ” if he doesn’t love you in the way you love him, at least there is a chance you won’t remember saying any of this. “ you can find happiness in so many other places. ” it wouldn’t be hard, to find a better match the heavens would accept. a lower god, an orphan, no titles, no land– that weren’t given to you because of chun. you were but a foot solider in their eyes.
and even if you were blessed enough, to catch the yeouiju and become a dragon 400 years before your time, they’d do nothing more then tolerate such a union. and even that, was wishful thinking. what would the heavens have to gain ? when did the heavens protect their women ?
“ your love is so warm. you shouldn’t waste it on me. even for us, waiting centuries… ” you lose your voice as your eyes flutter close. as the hot breathe leaves the confines of your chest in an effort to keep those stinging tears from slipping past your eyelids. though you manage the smallest puffs of false amusement while your head spins in a mild panicked frenzy, “ don’t i cause you more trouble than anything else after all ? ”
