My soul is literally rotting and withering away without anybody to live for except myself.
Ok, this probably sounds like a generic idea but HEAR ME OUT. First, you find an affordable therapist that works with your insurance. Then, you get a pet. If you’re lonely pets make life weirdly bearable and for a very long time my therapist was my only outlet for emotion that wasn’t destructive. My dog makes me get up every single morning to walk/feed her and in turn I go on a morning walk then think “oh yeah I also should eat” when I normally never would on my own. My leopard gecko’s tank needs to be cleaned and in turn I look around and go “damn maybe my tank needs to be cleaned” so, I declutter which helps my anxiety. House is empty? NOPE, your pet who loves you is here to keep you company and look at you like they totally get it.