PSA: I still haven't finished listening to TMA so PLEASE don't tell me anything past ep176!
I have written a TMA oneshot O_O Tbh I'm very self-conscious about posting it, since I don't know the fandom headcanons and popular tropes at all! Still, once I listened to "Blood Ties", the vision I got demanded to be given an outlet.
Anyway, enjoy, and please don't murder me if you think I screwed up the characterisation!
Rating: T
Wordcount: 1.6k
Overview: emotional hurt/comfort, vulnerable Jonathan Sims, Post-Episode 176: Blood Ties
Pairing: Jonathan Sims/Martin Blackwood
CW: none
Summary: As they traverse the post-apocalyptic world of horror, Martin slowly learns to see past the Archivist's fearless bravado, and to offer his boyfriend what he needs.
Snippet:
‘Basira, could you gi-’
Martin never got to finish the request, because suddenly two long arms were around him, pressing his back into the taller man’s chest, the Archivist’s face buried in his shoulder, lanky fingers wrapped around his biceps.
Basira had turned to face him in response to the interrupted address, and then Jon’s sudden motion had made her tense up and reach for her gun. But now she was frozen in place, studying the two of them, assessing the situation, judging whether the Archivist’s action had been predatory or… Martin met her gaze calmly with a reassuring, if a tad embarrassed smile. Her eyebrows knotted momentarily before soaring high, as she blinked several times and her mouth rounded in a voiceless “Oh!” of realisation. She lowered her pistol, rubbed her nose awkwardly (wait, was she covering a smirk?!) and turned away.
Martin made a mental note to thank her later and turned his whole attention back to the man coiled around him like a possessive koala. The Archivist’s arms trembled as his chest heaved against Martin’s back. Time after time, he could hear Jon struggle to hold in sobs.
Martin couldn’t support Jon in his ties to the Beholding (he wouldn’t; he refused to let his love become tainted with fear of this enslaved conduit the Archivist had no choice but to act as). What he could do was ensure that within those slim liminal spaces between the realms of terror, his ceaselessly watchful, protective companion found a temporary haven to be what he agonised to be. Vulnerable.
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oh fav five is hard! i love all my fics! but here goes in no particular order:
In Bud (Red Dead Redemption 2) Arthur/Albert
Line of Fire (Triple Frontier) Pope/Catfish
Sweetest Fruit You Can Bear (Fallout 4) OC Sole Calder Jacobson/MacCready
At The Seams (Endeavour) Morse/Jakes
The Song Unsung (Masquerada) Kalden/Jaxus
these are probably more my recent favorites than all time. its hard to choose my older work because it's long finished and doesn't vibrate my brain the same even though i still enjoy my old stuff and feel very proud of it.
Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers! Spread the self-love 💞
From newest to oldest, and unfortunately leaving out many stories I adore but that aren't as sophisticated writing-wise because I've grown as a writer since then.
like a damaged nerve, like a dark bird
Stranger Things | Robin Buckley/Chrissy Cunningham/Nancy Wheeler | 87k
In 1993, Nancy falls asleep on Barb's grave and wakes up in 1985. From there, she finds herself completely unstuck in time.
It's also a love story.
Novel-length time travel fic about grief, recursive, Sisyphean vibes, also I think the longest fic I've written in any fandom.
In Her Hips, There's Revolution
Stranger Things | Eddie Munson & Nancy Wheeler, Robin Buckley/Nancy Wheeler | 70.5K
Finally, she's able to get the number in right. The ring is sharp against her ear. Pick the fuck up, she thinks, and someone must be listening, because the ringing stops
"All right, Harrington, what's on this week's nightmare menu? And don't tell me the one about drowning in your pool again, man, we all know that's rich kid--"
"It's Nancy."
A long pause, then a laugh. "Wheeler? To what do I owe this late-night honor?"
"I, um." Nancy's tongue feels stuck to the roof of her mouth, like bare skin on upholstery. "I was wondering if you've got a couch I can crash on?"
This fic exists because I read a punk!Steve fic and in it Nancy was not into the punk scene and I was like. But what if she was, though. Riot grrl Nancy? Riot grrl Nancy. Complete with Ronance and Nancy and Eddie as best friends. Described by readers as "Jane Austen with more alleyway head." One of my only fics to get an & pairing and not just a / pairing, because the friendship really is that central.
objects in the mirror (are closer than they appear)
Stranger Things | Joyce Byers/Karen Wheeler | 5.3K
"Which do you think you're having?" she asks, pushing herself back to the land of the ordinary.
"Lonnie wants a boy," Joyce says.
"Your husband?"
Joyce snorts. "If you can call him that."
There's something nice about how that sounds, like the idea that just because you said your vows in front of God and your whole family doesn't mean you have to call the man your husband. Karen smiles.
"You know what?" she says. "Give me a cigarette after all."
The smile Joyce gives her back is like a secret between friends. "My kind of girl," she says, fishing into her purse, and when Karen takes the cigarette between her lips, Joyce lights it for her.
This fic was for Women's Wrongs day of Stranger Things Femslash week, and I was so proud of the strange fucked-up short story vibes I managed to get here. Joyce and Karen spousal murder 5ever.
pretty girls with bloodstained teeth
The Magicians | Margo Hanson/Alice Quinn | 4k
“You’re angry,” Alice says. Margo opens her eye to see that the smile on Alice’s face matches the one in her voice. “And you’re right to be.”
“If I’m angry, it’s because there’s a monster who seems to show up everywhere I go.”
Alice lifts a finger and runs it along Margo’s cheek, leaving a trail of ice crystals down its path. “Oh, Margo,” she says, sugar in her voice. “You’ve never been as good a liar as you think you are.”
This was my OG monster!girls story, based on the idea that Alice stays a niffin and seduces Margo to the dark side. It was so fun to write that it actual inspired the original novel I wrote and currently have on submission.
Chimera
The Magicians | Alice Quinn Character Study | 1k
She is part girl, part monster, and moving forward is a statistical improbability.
In defense of one of my favorite unlikeable female characters.
The incredible @unseenacademic tagged me in this ten or so days ago, but I'm only sitting down to do it. Spoiler alert: I end up cheating a little.
Rules: Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to five other writers! 💗
If you know me, you know I don't do well with picking – even if it's my fic! I am surprisingly protective of my stories. So expect a few honorary mentions/alternatives. A common thing in these is that I think they have a lot of heart, and have either made me emotional or just warmed my heart.
nobody knows how to get back home · Surprisingly the first one that came to mind! It's a missing scene from ITSOTG, because CJ needs a hug, badly. If I also explore a possible reason why Danny was so cold towards her, the better. As its A/N says, it's a story I wrote c. 2020, but then tweaked and rewrote. I'm pleasantly surprised by its stats, which I only seem to check when I do these memes.
don't want you to go but I'll be okay · I keep talking about this one but I just have fond memories of its writing process, and how proud I was after the first draft was done I might have also cried… This list could be comprised of fics I cried while writing. I was in the middle of changing jobs for the first time, and finishing up my first multichapter, whose ending was taking me forever. (I'm proud of it, even if I've never posted it for many reasons.) I wanted to write something that felt like it could slot into the show, preferably stretch a few angsty muscles. I love most Portland Trip stories because of the potential, and I love how this one comes together.
oh, and I will be with you to feel the California sun · a take on Jan 21st, 2007 might have been like. I reread it this morning and was all 🥺 about it — to me, this story is joyful, freedom, and sunshine. This story was born out of realizing my 2007 vignette should have been the airport reunion and deciding to write yet another version (not that I had posted any). This story grew into being about the day and the new beginnings, and I honestly think it's a good representation of what my stories are like.
maybe everything's just turning out how it should be · A story set during Big Block of Cheese Day in 2008. I feel like this will always be my most popular story, and maybe shouldn't even be here, but I'm not mad about that fact. I've said it a million times – ever since I wrote it, I wanted to share it. Took me a few years to gather the courage to post at all. I just liked the sneaky surprise of it all, which was a plot bunny I had for the longest time.
your love is a secret I'm hoping, dreaming, dying to keep · Picking a fifth one was hard, but I went with this one because I like thinking that Taylor herself read it and said, “You know what, I'm singing KOMH in its entirety in Madrid(*), just so Elena gets to hear that second verse.” And then, obviously, did it again in London just for me. Like with most of my stories, the difference between the initial drafts and what's posted is striking, but the silly “running into the press in late S7” premise was always there. (So much of this story got rewritten and expanded on.) I love the gift giving and the gloves, and I love the ups and downs in those months of secret relationship.
(* FWIW, international dates were not announced when this was posted, and I didn't even get tickets for Madrid that July, lmao.)
I'm leaving a few extra, rapidfire picks under the cut but seriously – I could make the case for any of them. I don't post anything unless I really like it, because I don't like posting just 'cause.
still you never took your hand from mine · I wrote a bunch of memoir-related stories (three!) in the span of ten days and I'm always amused this one got posted first. I just adored the snippets and vignettes, and reminiscing. This could've been even longer, somehow, but I love the journey and I adore how the ending came out. I definitely get emotional when reading it. This is another one that kept getting bits and pieces added over the years, as I realized what it was missing.
(The aforementioned multichapter is one of the three, but despite how insanely quickly I was finishing chapters, it still lives on my drive.)
what if the way you hold me is actually what's holy · Cannot believe I'm recommending my smutty story but you know what? I am proud of it, and there is more to it than smut. I still can't believe I posted it, but it seems to be well liked by those who commented it! I just wanted to challenge myself to write something out of my comfort zone, and also do good on the implicit promise of what a one bed fic does – unlike the other two. Kat's beta work truly made this one what it is.
haunted by the notion somewhere there's a love in flames · maybe an underrated pick? my take on the Christmas business dinner CJ and Danny shared in 1999. I just loved writing about CJ's walls crumbling a little, and her crush deepening, bridging this and HSFTTT. The second chapter was a late addition. I also consider this a sibling to Portland fic since they were written in the same fortnight(ish)!
we could be the way forward and I know I'll pay for it · My St. Augustine campaign story. Even if some memories are now tainted for reasons (I could say this with a few others), it forever holds a special place in my heart because of how much love it received, getting even a rec from someone on tumblr?
And to end this cheating round, I feel like I have to mention my last two posted stories as of writing this: all the things yet to come are the things that have passed (the S5 pregnancy AU, which is so silly but every chapter has a line or a moment that I can't believe I wrote) and if you feel like fallin', catch me on the way down (so silly and ridiculous, but hopefully fun – it's about Danny slowly finding objects that hint at CJ having feelings for him throughout the years).
Dammit, there are so many others I wanted to include but it wasn't their time, I guess.
Thank you @anneapocalypse for the tag 🥰
It was hard to pick 5, because I love all my fics for different reasons. I've picked the ones I personally am re-reading the most at the moment.
All fics are Fenris/Hawke or Fenris/Zevran/Hawke.
From Ashes || Ash Hawke x Fenris || 53,000 words and counting || Rating M
This is my ongoing main WIP and the embodiment of my soul. It's an allegory for recovery told through Ash Hawke's perspective, starting with her fall into the Fade rift at Adamant and following her journey to Weisshaupt where she is reunited with Fenris. But that is really where her story begins. It's full of despair and pain, joy and love, and pancakes!
2. You Gave Me Everything || Ash Hawke x Fenris || 1072 words || Rating T
A short two-part fic, Fenris and Ash's perspectives on that first night together. These both began as quick prompt fills but are some of my favorite words I've written.
3. festum amoris || Ash Hawke x Fenris || 1772 words || Rating E
This one is smut, and I find it so fun to read aloud! And also I wrote it and find it hot 😳I feel really proud of this one, and wrote it very quickly, and purposefully did not overthink it, and just got creative - this is the most fun I have ever had writing so far. I often spend a long time writing smut (I've got several smut wips I've been working on for months) but I wrote this in two days and posted it! It reminds me that I can just let go and have fun and write something I love.
4. Cinnamon || Ash Hawke x Fenris, Hawke & Lavellan || 3081 || Rating T
This fic is another really personal one, which came out very stream-of-consciousness (there's a pattern here - most of my favorite writing has been when I let loose and just write). Cinnamon is about the feeling of being disconnected from your family, heritage, home and the search for belonging. I also made a google doc about some of the food in the fic, which is inspired by Lebanese foods
5. A Tended Flame || Ash Hawke x Fenris x Zevran || 1189 || Rating T
This is my most recently posted fic, and the first Fenris x Zevran x Hawke I have finished and posted on A03 🙌Though I have been writing fic for this OT3 almost as long as I've been writing Fenhawke fic! The relationship between the three of them starts here, with this fic. It is set after From Ashes, while Ash and Fenris are working in the Inquisition. Zevran seeks aid from the Inquisition and crosses paths with them for the first time since the Battle of Kirwall.
There aren't many fics with this pairing and I am so excited to finish my WIPs and share more of their journey together.
Tagging without pressure @ammoniteflesh @breadedsinner and @juliafied and anyone else who sees this and wants to consider themselves tagged. I'd love to see your fave fics/the ones you want to talk about 🥰
Fic authors self-rec! ✨ When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you’ve written, then pass on to at least five other writers (if you would like to)!
Thanks for the tag @triforce-of-mischief
Of Dubious Sophistication: My own Wild meets the others fic, but the twist is that he made a very different first impression and decides to uphold the good image before everyone starts to find out who he really is one by one. There’s a chapter dedicated to each Link finding something out about him. It is currently in progress.
Revived AU: My ongoing fem!Wild AU that features Zelink being lesbians and how Link’s existence defies prophecy and how that changes the course of the story. Also ongoing and I have yet to incorporate LU.
The Silence of the Knight: My first loz fic, Delves into how strong Link’s mask is and how other people don’t tend to see him as a person anymore, How his silence and emotionless exterior is just a coping mechanism and what it would take to break it. Perfect for whumptober!
To Kill What’s Already Dead: Set after and written after sunset pt.7, so it’s very obviously not completely canon compliant anymore, but in any case, Wild and Time worry about the fate of Twilight, Wild is obviously not having a good time.
On Top of the World: Zelda and Link reunite after the defeat of the calamity. Yes, it’s named after the Imagine Dragons song. Shut up. This one is just pure fluff I’m gonna be honest.
I hate tagging people so if you see this and want to join, I officially tag you and want to see your fics!
Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love 💖
(💌 from princessxkenobi)
Hi sweetheart! 💕
First off, I’m so so so sorry it took me this long to answer this. Life and insecurities go in the way. I also had a really hard time choosing five, because all my fics are my babies, but I narrowed it down to these:
Alright my friends, this is a thing right now and I am more than happy to contribute! I was tagged by the absolutely wonderful @mhandersmyheart who has done so much to be kind and supportive in a fandom that isn’t always that. I bring you (hopefully) some good reads during this period of isolation.
My primary ship is m!handers BUT I have been known to write other things so here give this a looksee:
The Deep Roads - Complete. 12666 words. m!Hawke/Anders.
A multi-chapter fic that follows Wyatt Hawke - mage, total dork, and older brother - along with his companions as they carry on their fateful expedition. Canon-compliant, has a healthy dose of action, banter, pre-relationship fluff, and a pinch of angst.
A banquet of consequences - Complete. 4572 words. m!Hawke/Anders.
Remember the Act 3 quest - Best Served Cold? I decided to write what would happen if Anders had been the unfortunate victim of Grace and co’s kidnapping plan. Whoops.
Dance Lessons - Complete. 1213 words. f!Hawke/Fenris
One of my favorite one shots. Just a cute little piece where Hawke, after a bit too much to drink, tries to teach Fenris how to dance. Fenris POV. Soft feels. Pre-relationship
Make a Wish - Complete. 1290 words. f!Inquisitor/Cullen
A cute little one-shot I enjoyed writing about a certain Curly-haired Commander surprising his dear Inquisitor (my Genevieve) with a birthday gift.
14 Days of DA Lovers - Complete. 881 words. Multiple Ships.
This was my contribution to the Valentine’s Day writing event in February. It was 14 days of romance related prompts. I wrote 12 of the 14 days and put them together. Featured ships are m!Handers, f!FenHawke, f!Trev/Cullen & f!Cousland/Alistair. More fluff than you know what to do with. All pretty short drabbles.
That’ll do for now. Feel free to browse the rest of my works that aren’t listed here and drop some love. Enjoy!
tagging: @eternion @freethemages @fandomn00blr @wanderingnork @kirkwallgremlin
