#fictionalselfkin

[grimmwolf]

I want to indulge in my nonhuman selves some more. I do most days, but in a more fictional manner. My heart, mind and soul all live in a different world, but the majority of my consciousness, existence, and presence is here on this stupid earth, the literal last place where I would ever want to be, especially in this body, with next to no family or friends. I wanna get deep into my Raptor Shifter or Draconic Merfolk selves again. I feel them, I’m just not as motivated to express them as much these days.

Under the cut is unrelated to my identities, and more so of a rant…

On a separate but still related note…thanks to my newfound lifestyle and morals, I sort of feel indirectly outcasted by the therian and such communities, and I’m too sensitive these days to explain to people certain things. I’m not strong or smart enough. I give up on trying to connect with others, I’m just too different from everyone else and no one likes me for it in the end anyway, so that’s why I’ve isolated myself…not like anyone asked or cared…and if someone did care enough to interact, they’re probably on my dni list, interacting anyway and saying things like “you hurt my feelings / you’re wrong because blah blah blah…”

Just leave me alone, man. If you disagree or don’t like it, just leave. Just block me and move on, that’s all you have to do. Don’t send me asks. Don’t message me. Don’t comment on my posts. Don’t reblog my posts and slander me. Don’t cause me anxiety and pain. Don’t cause me stress or suffering. I just wanna be left alone and thrive with only the people who understand and accept. I don’t want to deal with people anymore. Everyone is always the same. Everyone is unable to see or change. I can’t even trust or rely on people who are “similar” to me…

Please, if you see this and you are on my dni and follow me, please unfollow so I can start new again…I’m so tired…

[grimmwolf]

Having some stalker shifts rn. And I don’t mean like a person stalker 😂 I mean the ones from the games Horizon: Zero Dawn and Horizon: Forbidden West. I never once thought I’d have any kind of robot or android or machine being or creature shift in my life. But, here I am. And boy am I sure glad that I got one, woo wee :D

This is awesome. Like, I’ve always loved the games, and the machines from the first moment I played. I really did. And I felt connected to the world too, in a way. But, until this day, I haven’t thought about being kin from the world. But now imma start questioning that. I don’t think it’ll take long tho. Cuz now that I think about it…

It feels so right to me.