Fantasy: Thursday Dec 7th 2023
Can't believe it's almost the end of the year. We've barely touched this blog in awhile but now more than ever I need to get my emotions out. For the first time I cut off a close friend from our life. We've cut people out before for other reasons but never someone close to us.
It might seem silly, as I know what they might go through with this, it is affecting me quite a bit all the same. But this was a long thought out decision of multiple people telling us to let them go. It took a long time for us to accept that might be the best option.
There is no resentment or hate towards them. We will miss the memories we made but we knew from the start that there was a chance we'd lose it all either way. We took that risk and have no regrets on the matter. We learned from our own mistakes in the relationship and we hope they learn as well. No ill will is meant and I have no intentions of asking people to side with us. Most of it was issues they'll never run across anyway. We wish them all the best and to have a better life without us in it.
I still feel bad about it. Like would it have just been better to be the kind of friends that just hang out occasionally? I feel like when we told them to go away some of the things we said may have sounded unfair. And certainly a lot was left out.
Just because you don't get along with someone doesn't make that person a bad person. Sometimes people just have very different needs from others. Some people have things they've got to work on. This doesn't necessarily mean either side is bad. Just incompatible.
Oddly enough as much as I despise having cut them out, I also don't regret it. But I still need time to grieve. Especially for how they are feeling. We know them so well and I think that's what makes me feel like a jerk.
However, do not let it be said we didn't give them an explanation/reason for cutting them off. We explained our piece as we would wish someone to do for us if they ever decided to cut us off, however painful that may be. We do care still. But for the sake of both side, this may be for the best.
I'm sorry. We'll miss you. Please stay safe. And please have a good life. Genuinely.
So If you're reading this, you're not a bad person (please always remember that). You just need to find someone more compatible to your needs. And you will someday. But that person isn't us. And thank you for being our friend as long as you were. Your company was very important to us.
