I have not posted anything on my page for a while now because there are no actual words to describe how I’m feeling but then I came across this photo that pretty much sums it up for me. I’m struggling, I’ve been really struggling. Monday May 27th 2019 was a very rough day for me because that was supposed to be my due date. All I thought about was how much I’d be holding you in my arms, thinking about how perfect you are, your little hands, your little feet and just imagining how complete I’d feel knowing that you are here with me. I’m hurting, I’m in mental and emotional pain and I keep silent about it because I don’t want to be looked on as being crazy. We often say everything happens for a reason and that we should not question God but how can I not question Him when I’m left with this void which seems as if nothing else can fill it? I miss you my baby (you may have been a 7 weeks old fetus but you are still my baby) #fightinginfertility #ectopicpregnancy #ectopic #miscarriage #salpingectomy #onetubeless #irregularperiod #causeunknown #awaitingmyrainbow #awaitingmyrainbowbaby #extremelylongmenstrualcycle https://www.instagram.com/p/ByKsuImh0-p/?igshid=1u529syzpiegs