Commencing Finals Week Breakdown...
Here is my schedule... Monday: 2 final exams (back to back) 8am Tuesday: -morning clinical ~6-8am -drive straight from there to take my final (which I need an 88 to pass the class) 9am -math exam (as soon as I submit the previous final) -as soon as I submit the math (need a 100% for all math exams), I go to makeup clinical -makeup clinical: they expect me finish prework prior to entering clinical simulation I'd like to diagnose myself with anxiety, depression, cardiac dysrhythmias, and risk of suicidal ideations. I'm tired of my class mates telling me "you can do this", because I literally can't. I just want to be realistic, and accept the fact I'm going to fail and that I need to plan for THAT. I'm just trying to survive here but my school doesn't work in my favor. I've gotten in trouble for using my laptop to write notes in class (although it's an "electronic school"). My dean has also scheduled me to have clinicals literally right before 3 of my 4 nursing exams, one of which is my final.... Which I need an 88 in to pass. Everything is being thrown at me at once and i feel like I can't breathe. How can I be praised for excellent care and work as a nurse in the actual hospital setting yet proceed to fail in my classes? What's more important? Saving a life or how I test on one day? I've worked so hard and studied every second I had for this and I feel like none of that shows because I can't take a damn test. Perhaps it's anxiety, who knows. I've never been one to work well in tests, but I really need to learn. And fast. And because I'll fail, I'll be graduating in September instead of June.
