For starters, I was not able to finish college on time. On my third year second sem, I have decided to not finish that course and move to another school and as well as shift to another course. Beside to the fact that it was a pandemic and everything's online. It really hit my mental health and made me think and ask myself "what am I doing?". I lost every excitement that I felt when I was in first year. I do not see myself working the course that I am taking at that time. The decision was hard. I have to think of the factors of that decision in my life because I will literally start at zero. Leaving was hard but at the same time it was satisfying because I am free from my trauma. But, everything has an effect. Now everytime I see people younger than me or seeing my batchmates graduate, it freaking hurts my heart. Because I was supposed to be with them. I was supposed to be working and be done with school. Even if I keep telling myself that my time will come, it will always be hard whenever you see people move forward while you are left behind. But I just remind myself that my time will come when my own light shines while the other people's light are done. I know in the end I can finish it and be part of the official graduates <3