#finley.rambles

[fishfinz]

update

i don't remember if i have any discord friends on here, but i lost my account. no clue how to get in anymore, i only just remembered this morning that i had a tumblr. my life is slightly less hectic than before, but my mom broke my phone and i can't get into most of my old accounts unless i attached them to my email. i'm trying to get a new phone, but i just wanted to say how much i miss everyone and i'm going to try my best to be a better friend. most of this time was spent recovering physically and mentally, but i'm sorry for what to others just looks like a spontaneous disappearance.

love you guys.

[fishfinz]

since the last post went nowhere, let's try it again but with pictures. I'm homeless and disabled, and now I need to be the breadwinner of the family SO!

you want portraits? i gotcha.

you want furries, chipmunks, or trolls? i gotcha.

screenshot redraws are cool, that counts as a full illustration.

and if you'd like the added bonus of supporting a queer, black, first-time college student, I also fit that bill. I start in the spring and that shit ain't cheap.

if you can't help, pass it on, and spread the word. thanks in advance!

[fishfinz]

I’ll start with an easy one.

How did you discover Alvin and the Chipmunks and which characters do you relate to most?

hi jenna!! in short, my mom got me into it! she's a movie collector and a big chipmunk fan. 💚

i'll monologue under a read more hehe

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I think she showed me The Chipmunk Adventure movie way back in elementary school, and I was into it, but it wasn't quite an obsession yet? then she showed me the CGI movies and it grew into a Facet of My Personality lol

thanks for asking! :D

as for which character I relate to, IT HAS CHANGED EVERY SECOND OF MY LIFE. buuuuut it's probably Simon. and Jeanette. the arc of doing anything you possibly can to keep your siblings out of trouble? even at your own expense?? there are no words to describe the amount of connection I have with that lmao

2015!Jeanette is me to a T, but I keep forgetting to watch it past the first season 😩

[fishfinz]

Posting

I don't know if you guys noticed but the program I use to queue my art is bugging so art is going to pause as I have. i'll focus on my health and figure out what art i do and don't want to post publicly (i wanted to start a membership thing). hopefully, i can fix this by january. thanks <3

[fishfinz]

05/14/2023

tw: suicidal ideation

the landowner terminated our lease. we have to be out tomorrow? i think? nothing is clear.

we don’t have any money. we don’t have any friends. we don’t have any family to help. we’re completely isolated and the pressure is too much.

i’m tired. i’ve been iffy for a while, but between trying to transition from inside the fucking closet, trying to understand how my brain works, trying to get any kind of work, trying to be a face of calm, losing my best friend. i’m over it. i’m over life

i wanna scream. i want to cry but have no tears. i’m tired. i don’t want to do this anymore.

[fishfinz]

we completely drained our savings, (we in debt + the negative) so we going to live with my grand aunt. here’s hoping that helps my brain clear up

[fishfinz]

top 9 i think lol

tagged by @zebracakesxox ; thanks !

i will say , though i liked eli and the turning , they are not my favorites . i just didn’t want to leave the list at 7 lol

lite tagging: @theannoyeddragon82 @willbyersvillainarc and anyone else who wants to (no pressure <3)

[fishfinz]

Let's Address

I don't have complete confirmation that this situation won't reflect badly on me in the future, so let me make this clear right now, on my main social media; No, I do not think white people shouldn't draw black people. Not once have I ever said anything even remotely similar. In fact, I only follow people who do draw black people because otherwise, it's looking very Proud, iykwim. For more context, continue reading. Thank you.

2 days ago, a kid on everskies took a post i was supervising for my younger sister, and my answer that, "white people who want to sell black adoptables should run them by actual black people" and said that i believed no one but black people should draw black people. and a lot of people agreed. now it's going around that i'm hostile(?). so, i'm letting everyone know here, and now, i said what i said. you are not going to twist my words.