my heart
Usually when I say ‘my heart’ it’s because I’m so touched or think something is cute or beautiful HAHA. This is usually followed by a motion where I put both my hands on my heart. but yeah. That’s not what this is about.
I think tonight I see the pride and fear again that my heart has. So much still the eyes that look at myself and the arrows that point towards me. Any time there is an uncomfortable moment I try to avoid it or am in fear so I try to leave that discomfort as soon as possible. I saw this during the summer as well.
Really praying in repentance and also for a heart that sees God, and sees others, and not at myself, not making it about me and about what I’m getting or not getting but that my eyes would be in love with God and that I would have love and compassion for those around me. That it would be about them, serving them, loving them, that they would receive Christ. For Christ did not think of Himself. He suffered on the cross and what was on His mind? The joy that was set before Him, that i and many would be saved and to do the will of His Father.
So I pray that may be my heart as well. And that is my prayer. That my eyes would be set for the joy that is set before me, whatever discomfort, pain, or suffering there may be, that it would be for others and to walk in obedience to the Father’s will out of love and His love for me.
First day tomorrow.
Draw me close.
